Woke Up This Morning A Itsy Bitsy Upset, For Reasons Perhaps Unknown.
Trying 2 Get Through This 'Sesson of No'...And Move On 2 Our Stint on Tha Throne.
There's Just So Much U Gotta Go Through, Is It 2 Early 2 Grab A Bottle of Patrón?!
U Have 2 Accept That This Is Ur Road 2 Success, Although While Driving U Wanna Toss Out Ur Phone.
This Word Amnesia Is On Our Brain, How It Got There I Think I Forgot!
Not Remembering Anything From Tha Past, Despite Having Surviving A Whole Lot.
I Question Myself If I Should Stop Writing, Retire My Stylus of Classic Jot.
No Longer Share Intimate Feelings About 'Real Life'...Live Like Everyone Else, Like A Robot.
Last Night I Was Reading About This Being Single Thang...Oh Boy, That's a Can of Worms!
So Many Others Feel Like It's Tha Have Vs. Tha Have Nots, A Made For TV Court Battle 2 Make U Squirm.
Why Do Some Have It Easy? Without Having 2 Endure Bad Dates after Bad Dates like Ifs Tha New Norm.
While Others Begin 2 Feel Hopeless...When There's A Glimpse of Sunshine, Closely Behind Lurks Another Rainy Storm.
It Doesn't Seem Fair...U Look Hot, Are Very Intelligent, And Even Show Genuine Manners In Every Single Way.
One of Pops' Friends Might've Been Right...'Sometimes U Win...Sometimes U Lose...Sometimes U Don't Even Get a Chance 2 Play.'
Yeah...I'm Feeling This Thang On This Sunday Morning...Perhaps Instead of Writing This Mumbo Jumbo, I Should Drop 2 My Knees and Pray!
In Tha Name of Tha Holy Trinity of Cupid, Georgy Porgy and Cassanova, Let All Tha Madness Stop!! Let All Have Their 'Something Borrowed, Something Blue' Special Day.
I've Gone Through Just About All One Can Withstand...Smart Gurls, Gourgeous Looking Gurls...Party Dames...Many Times A 3-in-1 Shampoo of Fun.
Dating and This Quest Of Luv Has Been My Holy Grail of Sorts, Wondering if I Have 2 Ask Indiana Jones Out on A Date 2 Finally Tell My Grandmama, 'I Found Tha One!!'
I'm Never Thirsty, Never Sweated a Chick...Or Excuse Me A Young Lady, Realizing That A Gurl is Worth More Than A Pair of Puppies and A Sizzling Set of Buns.
But it's Like...At Times It Can Feel like It Backfires on You...Like I Should Just Be A Jerk or Prick, People Say 'No' But...My Heart Is Exhausted From This Life 2 Date Pun.
It's Like..,Yeah, Yeah U Look Good Whatever...Ok, U Got A Degree From Where? Oh, So What!...U Learned How 2 Twerk From Miley Cyrus, Who Hasn't...I'm just Not All That Impressed No More.
Trust Me, When I Say That I Believe No One Has Had More Beautiful Gurls, Inside and Out, Be Around Them, Without Being in a True Relationship That Us...It's A Weird Score.
Part of You Feels Like Your Winless...Another Part Feels Like It's "Zero-Zero"...And Tha Funny Thing Is Wherever I Go I Seemingly Attract Sexy Women, Always Hanging Around but Never Knocking on My Door.
So When I Do See Someone Worthy of Me Going Through Courageous And Honest Methods 2 Get...U Hope For a Friendship At Least, Before U Two Go 2 Tha Mall and Say, 'J'Adore Christian Dior!'
Being Unique, Which Me and A Lotta Gurls and Guys Alike Are, Sometimes is Intimidating 2 People, This I'm Now Starting 2 Accept.
Like I'm A Very, I Guess 3-D Type of Person, Almost like A Cartoon...We Can Talk Sports, Politics and Music...Then After Discussing Which is A Better Kiss: French or Eskimo? We Then Can Discuss How Jesus Wept.
Tha Most Beautiful of Women have Told Me...'You're Not Made For Everyone.', 'Don't Settle'...Encouraging Me Not 2 Lose Pep in My Step.
So Many Send Me Messages of, 'Some Gurl is Gonna Be So Lucky 2 Have You!'...I've Gotten a Lot of Those Responses and Replys, in My Heart I've Done Kept.
Tha Most Difficult Thang Though, is If I'm So Called This or That, Then How Come Life Can Seem Like A Combination of Flavor Flav's Flavor of Luv Meets Tha MTV Latina version of Jersey Shore?!
Why Can't Tha Person You Want See That Spark of Fun & Energy? It's Like For Every Hundred Apples, You Keep Picking Out Tha Only Bad One...Sooner Or Later U Might Be Like 'Screw It' I'll just Nibble At This One 2 Tha Core.
You Have Standards, That In Your Mind Aren't Too High Really...I Mean Always Striving 2 Be Ur Best and No Tan Lines Isn't Unattainable 2 Me...Maybe I Should Tell A Gurl 2 Put on A Helmet, And Then Right Outside Tha Club See if She Can Skateboard?!!
I'm Learning That Just Cuz A Person Seems Meant For You, Don't Mean They're Meant For You...Luv is More Than Sharing A Like For Supreme Pizza Hot Pockets and Jams on Tha Dance Floor.
As I Said Before, How Bad Do U Want What U Want? First off...Who Do U Want? Then, Are U Willing 2 Go Through Tha Sometimes Inexplicable Lessons Until That Day Arrives.
Those Nights Alone...Those Invites 2 Ur Friends Wedding and There's No Worthy Date In Sight, These Moments Can Really Mold You In and Outside.
You Grow, You Understand What Truly Matters in Relationships...I Think Ur Actually More Calm and Patient, Because U Know What U Had 2 Go Through 2 Grab a Piece of Tha Pie.
But...Ur Also Ultra Strong...U Know What U Want and Got No Time 4 Games or Whatever...I Beg For A Real Gurl Who's Like, 'Look, I Want This, This and This...I'll Text U...If U Down Cool, if Not I'm Gone!' A Straight Up Gurl Who Knows What They Want is So Rare...Females Say They Do, but A Lot Don't ...
No Rhyme Needed For That.
So Even I'm Reminded That What I Want is Tha Complete Package, it's Not A Situation Where I meet A Cutie and I Put Her on A Pedestal 2 Where She's Scared 2 Go Without Makeup.
Not Even Close...It's 2 Where Tha Gurl I Like Already is Confident in Her Skin 2 Where She Goes Without Makeup And Still Feels Beautiful As We Become a Ghetto Cleopatra and King Tut.
It's Like Being a Competitor in Sports and in Life, Either U Have That 'Fight Within' or U Don't...Some People Only Want A Grass-Fed and Organic Lifestyle...Others Feel They Can Live off of Pizza Hut.
That's Why U Shouldn't Look 2 Change Anybody, Accept Them From Tha Get 2 See If That's Who U Wanna Get Wit...If They Can't Be Real 2 A 'Do U Want Mickey'Ds or Burger King?' Question...They Sure Nuff Won't Be Real in Regards 2 Private or Public School...Rent or Lease...Or Wine Glasses or Plastic Cups!
Must Admit After All I've Been Through I'm Gonna End Up With A Rare Gurl...Yeah She's Gonna Be Stunning and Smart, but Ultra Cool as Tha Fall Breeze in November.
Tha Ultimate Fun Gal for Tha Ultimate Fun Guy...Someone Else Who's Been For A Long Time Chopping At Luv's Tree and Is Gladly Anticipating Tha Day She Yells..."Timber!!!"
She May Be Reading This Diary of Mine or Be Accross Tha World Feeling Our 2 Souls Connect...Realizing That Finally Someone Gets 'Me' With All My Scars and Splendor.
Truly I've Been Made For Some Special Somebody, Tha Best of Tha Best...
Something Says I Was Quite Mad Earlier This Morning...
But Just Like Tha Pain From My Past Likes and Luvs...
I Don't Even...Remember!
(Ha ha ha!)
This is Getting Good...Yep! Getting Good!
Luv and Fun Always!
Austin!
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