Bricklayer.

This Final Day of Tha Worst Month of My Life...Everything is Becoming Crystal Clear.

Tha Road 2 Success Has Pot Holes U Must Ditch, Or Even Fall into 2 Have a Spirit of No Fear.

Tonight Tha Diary is Tha Star, I'm Taking a Backseat, Not knowing Tonight's Who, What, And Where.

Just Gonna Let it Flow...Let Tha Stylus Do Tha Work, Until We're Finished Not Coming Up For Air.

U know, I've Learned A Lot, Too Much Really Our Life Has Been A Top Notch Master's Course.

I admit, that I've flunked a Few of Tha Tests, So many Times Wanting to Put Tha Carriage in Front Of Tha Horse.

Super Motivated To Prove 2 Others That They Made a Huge Mistake, Not Seeing That One Day I'm Gonna Be An a Unstoppable Force.

Taking Kindness for Weakness...Underestimating Tha Opprotunity At Hand...Upset That My Threesome Includes Fun & Luv...What a Freaky Source!

This Month I Felt Like Time Was Running Out...Like 'Pac Knowing That Time Was Getting Short.

I was Already Frustrated By Tha Demands Place on My Life...Almost Like Cupid Was Using My Life as Sport.

Everyday a New Gurl...Everynight Another Reason To Lie on My Back in Zen or Prayer...I Felt So Alone Without Anyone 2 Represent Me in This Court.

Felt Like an Orphan That Nobody Wanted 2 Be With...Yet I know They are Watching My Every Move Like Jay and Bey Leaving a Tropical Resort.

Hard. I've never Uttered That Word So Much. Tough Schedule. No Party Life. Nightmare For This Kid of Laughs.

U Try 2 Get Through 2 Some People Like, Hey U Should Hang? And They Look at U Strange Like That Talking Toys 'R' Us Giraffe?!

Felt Like I Had SARS, Or Mutha Freakin' Bird Flu...Why Is Every Door Closed on Me When I Have an Heavenly Staff?

Tha More Focused I Got, Tha More Road Blocks to My Dreams...Rejection is Truly Tha Benchmark for Any Broadway or Hollywood Path.

Thoughts Crossed My Mind, Is This Even Worth it? I mean, I Gone Through More, For a Longer Period of Time...Really Tired and Frustrated By All These Tests.

I'm Tha Most Innocent Yet Gangsta Person You'll Ever Meet...Only Want Tha Joy of Life To be Shared So We All Can Be Our Best.

Felt like Tha Message Was a Going on Deaf Ears..Girls Turning Their Back on Us like I Only Wanna Screw Them or 69 Them...Not Appreciating Their Inner Beauty only Their Breasts.

I Would Think All These Females Like Us, But I keep Picking and Liking Tha Absolute WRONG Ones, I Can't Keep Digging in Luv's Sea For This Treasure Chest.

I was Humbled and Frustrated...Because I Pride Myself on Being One of Tha Best...Someone That Centuries From Now Folks Will Giggle At Tha Mentioning of Our Name.

Tha One Who as a Kid Watching Hard Copy or Inside Edition, Made a Pact to Ourself That I'm Gonna Use My Celebrity to Change Tha World...Absolutely Maximize Our Fame.

But Recently It Has Felt Like I'm Never Gonna Win...I Try and Try and Try and After Striking Out Over and Over, U Walk 2 Tha Manager and Say...I Don't Even Wanna Play This Game.

Tha Rules Have Changed...Everybody wants 2 Text and Take Selfies...I Come From Tha Era Of Intimate Phone Calls and Where Using 'I' Constantly in Sentences was Considered Lame.

People are So Negative, Never Thinking of What Could Be...If U Aren't Two Shades of Grey From a Person's Friend List on Facebook, it's Like U Can't Date.

I Luv Talking To Strangers, Hanging Out With Folk Who Just Aren't Solely into Sports or Fashion or Music...Expanding Ur Horizons In my Book Is Mad Great.

Society Now is So Afraid To Do New Things...Meet New People...I Luv Netflix but Nothing Can Replace Going 2 Tha Movies Smelling That Popcorn, Eating Mike 'N Ike's and Cuddling With Ur Mate.

All This Stuff I Had 2 Deal With...Wishing I Was Born in a Different Time...Wishing I Had a Mamacita Who Parties like an 80s Gurl, Dresses Like a 90s Chick and Is Fit like a 2000s Babe...My Checkmate.

I'm a Competitive Person...Everybody Talks of Tiger, and Kobe and Jeter, but My Soul Hates to Lose and I Really Hate it When I Feel as If I'm being Played or Looking Bad.

Inside I Take Notes, and Use Every Single Setback as Motivation, Turning It All into Fuel...SomI Can Prove That Our Life Wasn't Just A Passing Fad.

Just like T.I. And Beenie Man Say...I'm Serious...Either U Luv Me or U Hate Me...Because I'm Not Gonna Turn Down And Deny Myself and Others a Life So Rad.

I'm Sharing My Experiences and Opprotunities With Those Who Really Care About Fun and Enjoying Life...I Got Money, but My Focus is Providing Moments That Make All of Us So Glad.

I'm a One of a Kind, a Once in a Lifetime Guy...I was at Tha Heat Game Tonight and This Special  Lady From Security Yelled..."Everybody Loves You!!" After Some Women Shouted My Name Out Loud.

You Can Have All My Premium Kicks, All My Alexander Wang Gear and Versace Underwear, To know That Somebody's Day Was Made Better is What Makes Me Proud.

I Live A South Beach Lifestyle but Ur Not Getting a South Beach 'Tude...You Can't Make Everyone Like You...Some Are Happy Being Comfortable, While Others Like Me Wanna Fly up Among Tha Stars and Tha Clouds.

This Ain't Snobbery, This is Factual...This Diary of Ours is a Psedo-Guidebook to Some of Tha a Things You Might and Will Encounter When Going After Ur Dreams...All Tha Joys and Somethings Doubt.

It Takes Huge Chutzpah To Write All This...I Luv 2 Read, Autobiographies Are Tha Bomb Diggity, But As I've Said Before Anybody Can Write after They Are a Star or Have Their Hubby or Wife At Hand.

Not Knocking it...But I just Thought it'll be Cool to Have Something While a Person is going Through Tha Ups and Downs of Finding Thier Perfect Job and Their Number One Fan.

I mean...What if I Don't Become a Big Star? What if I Don't Find This Babe That Makes All Tha Lessons and Experiences Worth it? This Would Be a Waste and Worth Nuthing More at hand Than Grain of Sand.

But I know That I Will...I Wish I Saw What Pain Came From Denials To Our Favorite Stars or Even a Luv Ones...They Tell us, But I Want Something To Really Share Tha Inner Struggle of That Boy or Woman.

Today is Just a that Marker in Our Life Where U just Make Up Ur Mind That Ur Gonna Strive to Be Tha Best and Not Care Who Doesn't Want 2 Come With.

I'm Gonna Make Sure That I'm On My "A" Game Like Never Before...My Swagger is One of...Let's All Go On This Memorable Ride, If U Ain't Down, Move Out My Way and Continue 2 Live in Ur Dumps and Pits.

Something Special is Happening, I Really Know That For Sure...Never Before Have I've Been So Excited To What is Going To Happen and I'm Using Every Lesson as My Guide and Kit.

These Last Moments Felt like Life v. Galaxia With All Tha World To Laugh and Possibly See Me Fall...Told You He was a Nuthing...When Times Got Hard...Like Everybody Else He Just Up and Quit.

But There's a Neverending Fire That Burns Inside Of Me, Similar to That in D.C., With Tha Unknown Solider's Burial Stone.

One That Is Determined To Leave a Legacy of 'Fun and Luv' on This Earth, Hopefully Folks Will Just See Me As A Kiddo With Tha Heart and 'Anything is Possible' Ego as Big as Tha Syracuse Carrier Dome.

I'm Ready To Play Big Time...This Just Ain't Talk...Folks Wanna Doubt Me, Don't Wanna Be With Me Even Though There's No Compare, Let's Do It...And See Who's Face and Philosophies Will One Day Take Over Ur Home.

I've Always Compared of How Long Success Has Taken...Or Tha Long-Suffering Of Love Gone Wrong...But Now I Understand Greatness and How Perfect Timing Is Everything...

And Today is Tha First Brick I Lay Down in My Roman Coliseum...

Tha Symbol Perhaps For Tha Most Legendary Era...

Ever Known.