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Friday Night...Lights Off...Just us and Tha Diary For Ol' Times Sake.

Today has Been a New Beginning of Sorts...Tha Initial Stage where Dreams Become UnFake.

Not Sure if that's Even a Word, That's what Happens When Geeky Gurls Tell u know 2 a First Date!

Subjects become Predicates...Nouns Become Adverbs...U Wonder if Sucking Lollipops is Better Than Tasting Cake!

To be Blunt Like a Marijuana Smoke, our Life is Brand New, and I Feel it in Tha Wind.

But 2night There Seems to be Something Else a Brewing in this Fun Coffee of Folgers Blend.

Perhaps Someone is Just Like Me...Ready To Give Up...And Go See a Shrink cuz All That's in Your Head is...When?

How come it's taking so Long? All This Work Seems 2 Be For Naught...Tired of Life's Strict Rules cuz They Never Seem 2 Bend.

I'm gonna Be Honest...Lately I've been Trying To Mr. Perfect...Wrestling With Life Wondering When is Tha Right Time for Tha 'Perfect Plex'.

Trying to make sure Everything is So Organized and On Schedule...I think I've a Written down I gotta Pick up some Underwear so many times that I've Become a Mess.

Wanting Tha Absolute Perfect Gurl with Tha Goddess Body...Smirking Inside When I See a AttracyGurl Wearing Born Loafers with a Roberto Cavalli Dress.

Always Taking Notes...Always Willing to walk 2 Pass on Tha Regular Water Fountain, to Go to One Where Tha H2O has Pieces of Lemon...Wanting Every Advantage 2 Make My Body Oscar Award Ready 2 Impress.

A Thought Hit me with Through Sports...That in Some of Tha Greatest Games Ever, those Stars Didn't Hit Ever Shot.

When MJ Scored 63...Kobe with His 81 Points, even During Those Games they Weren't 100% yet, it's those Moments That Add To Their Hall of Fame Plot.

Usually we don't view Success in Terms of What it Took to Get There...Sacrificing Family Time...Studying on a Saturday Night instead of Partying Then Falling asleep Sloppy Drunk on Someone's Cot.

We just look at Tha Final Result...They Own Their Business...Homedude or Homegurl Finally got married...But So Much goes on Before u make it 2 Becoming Success' Robot.

I think in Many ways I've felt like Other People...In terms of Being Underrated and Overlooked and It Tickles me Straight 2 My Funny Bone.

U think, I'm know a Lot of People...Our Resumè is Pretty Good My Friend...How Come is Seems like People are Buying into Others 'Fakeness', When they see my Realness and it Gets Put on Loan.

Almost like an Andy Warhol Lifestyle where if u Look Hard Enough You'll Find us At Tha Hottest Parties,  Rocking Tha Latest Threads, having Intimate Conversations with Chicas that make U'll Dream 2 Make U Moan and Groan.

So u sit back and think, why are they making Such a big deal About this Person...u never Hate but Ur Mentality is That They are Missing out on Tha Next Best Thing After Tha First IPhone.

This Diary Always comes Back 2 Luv and Dating but it's those Moments of Rejection or 'Missed Shots' that Can Turn you From A Good Player into a Superstar.

U've Relationships That have Gone Sourpuss...I wish I can add a 'Y' to that, Cuz it sounds More Sensual!...Anyways, Gone Bad in Tha Past, with U Wondering How Can Nobody Want This Free 911 Car.

You Lay in Bed Wondering What More Can you Have Done 2 Make this Person Want Me...I cooked...Paid For our First Lunch...They 8 O'clock, and I was Right there on time Waiting at Tha Bar.

All Tha While They are Posting Instagram Pics, lying in Bed Half Naked with their New, I Guess, "Mate" and Ur Questioning Cupid at Luv's  E.R. When he Said it'll Only be A Few Weeks Before Tha Band-aid can Be Removed from Ur Heart's Scar.

I Recall being So Hurt by a This One Gurl (Are Gangsta Guys or Playboys Supposed 2 Be Writing Like This? Hmmm...)...But This Chica Hurt me So that I took like 9 months off From Tha Game.

I didn't Approach Anybody, There were no, 'I'm a Scorpio, and You're a Sag...I Really Want 2 Sleep With You and Make U my WAG!' Nothing. Like a Lion that was Somehow Tamed.

Heck, off course, It's During those Rebound Periods Where All Tha Hottest Gurls and Guys Flirt and Come 2 You...But Your Mind still can't Comprehend Being Passed Over For a Lame.

U don't Go 2 Invited Parties...Tell Moms and Pops that's Everything is Cool when in Actuality Ur Soul is Bubbling...So T'd Off Wondering if Anybody is ever Gonna Take Tha Honor of Having Ur Last Name.

After that Period and Right Before that 'Season of Fire' Where u a Turn ur Anger into Becoming Tha Most Motivated and Ultimate 2.0 Version of Yourself, There's That Season of Seinfeld Law.

Where every Guy or Gal that you see or meet, looks good or is Super a Cool But...U find Something Wrong a With them like U Hate how One Eyebrow is Higher than Tha Other or Why is Tha First thing this Gurl does when we shop is look for Tha 25 Cent machine of Gumballs?!

You tell Your Homies in ur Trey Songz Voice 'That's Tha Last Time.'...Gurls Give Three Snaps In Tha Air 2 Their Homegurls and Say, "Never Again Boo!'...Only Dating on Your Terms 2 Never Again Fall.

Some Stop Dating a Particular Race...Others Go only 2 Those Who Drive Fisker Cars in House Shoes...Ur Upset...Mad...And Disappointed at How U've Been Treated...Pisss...What Gall??

One thing We've Learned when We've Been Disappointed or Let Down.or "Fudge" when Somebody Doesn't Want 2 Return a Simple Text (I didn't Think that was even Possible!)...But those Feelings u just...Embrace.

Not too Long ago I was in a Situation Where I was like, I always Wanted this Gurl, She's taken a Re-Dip into Tha Single Pool, I've been in it for a While so she was My Dara Torres in this Relay Race.

That's Pretty Good cuz Luv is Like a Relay Race from one 2 Tha Next...Finally to Tha One who Brings You Gold...I'm gonna Save That One for Tha Seminar! I think I lost my Place...

Oh, So, We were Texting Each Other, Kicking it Together...I felt like She Got My Silly Jokes and Understood My Mind as a Creator and Ar-Teès...CSI: Galaxia Luv can Finally Close Case.

I never told anybody, I mean NOBODY this but...

Another Factor that Got me Besides Good Convo, her Super Cute Lips and How She's Been Around & Seen Some Stuff Go Down As Well was How She Had a Sensor like a Heavenly Touch.

I Put This on Pitbull and Tha Rest of Tha 3 Oh 5...Everytime I would be in Tha Sierra Mist of One of My Holier Than Thou, 'This World Sucks' Moments, She would always Text me...It Was Too much.

I could Be Down on My Knees Thinking or In Prayer, 'Man, Being Me isn't all What it's Cracked Up 2 Be'...And I'd Hear that 'Blip-Blip!' And it would be Her with a Joke or Smiley Face, that Gave me a Needed Crutch.

She Had Tha Physical...I Enjoyed Her Mental...Her Timing was Crossing over 2 Tha Metaphysical...I'm sure She was a Good "Lay", but I wanted Her Brain not 2 Just get Her Panties in a Bunch.

Only Tha True Freaks Could Catch that Last Line!

She was Unique...But Guess What somehow Everything Fell Apart...I wasn't Sure Who's Fault it Was...even though I don't Think it was Mine.

Nobody EVER thinks it's their Fault...And I won't Get into My Intimidating 2 Some Lifestyle...But Once Again for Tha Upteen Time in our Life we have 2 Gather Ourself when I thought I saw Tha Finish Line.

I Have a Grand Ego, yet I was Pretty Flustered cuz if U get along With Somebody, Her Timing was Lyrical like She Was Destiny's Child, and U Two Aren't Even Friends?? When it comes 2 Me Perhaps Luv is Blind.

U Go through That Process of Is it Worth it...Should U Even Still Believe...Thinking That Possibly They are a All Right, Tha Good Ones are always Taken...And You Can't Be Smart and Fine.

But I started 2 See Tha Whole Picture and Realize that If I Want this 'One In A Million' Luv Aaliyah used to Sing About, I may Have 2 Go Through 999,999 To Get There.

And Also Realize that just Because You have a Rough go FOR YEARS...That's Not Gonna Define What Your Life is or Can Become...Just Because it Rains Early Doesn't mean U Still Cannot Enjoy Tha Fair.

I Believe that Sometimes NOT getting What U Want is Sometimes Tha Best that Can Happen to you...As we said awhile Back...Sometimes it's better 2 Be Boo'd than Cheered.

U learn about Yourself, who's Truly with you or Not...And a With more Rejection and a Bigger, Oh what's Tha Phrase? Sample Size, Yes! Score...That's it! U Can Overcome Any Fear.

It Only Takes One 2 Change Everything Around...Real Quick, u ever Notice at Weddings When Tha Best Man or Best Brides Chick Gives Their Speech they Never Talk about Past Flames.

I'm kinda Weird, or So I've been Told but wouldn't It He Dope for Tha Best Man to Mentioned All Tha Groom Had 2 Deal with mentioning Every Out of Order Dame?!

To me, that Would Be Cool cuz Others could hear about ALLLLL those two people Had 2 Go Through Until 2 Became 1...Shout Out To Tha Spice Gurls! Whoo-Whoo! Sorry, I just Had 2 Mention Their Name.

I know This Thinking Rarely Occurs, but if U've Been through Tha Storms of Luv or Jobs and Have Survived...U got No Reason 2 Be Ashamed...U Kept Believing When Others Called u Insane.

Tonight is All about Tha Big Picture and Realizing That All of Us Have Greatness within us & That if We just Keep Going We Will Get What we Desire.

I've had my Back against Tha Wall so much that it Looks Like Kat Von D did my Back in Straight Up Bricks!  But Those are the Stage Points of Life u must Feel if u Want 2 Go Higher and Higher.

Missing a Few Shots...Going Through Crazy Relationships and Wasted 'I Luv You's', that's All Part of

Tha Game...U Can't just Luv Tha Good Sex and Walks in Tha Parks and Not Luv Tha Moments U Hear Tha Words, 'With This Relationship, I'm just Tired.'

It's in those Moments Where it Looks Like Ur Gonna Lose or Be Forever Lonely with 30 Cats where U Realize that Ur Life IS headed in Tha Right One Direction...With Screaming Fans and a World Tour So on Fire.

It's all About Luv and Fun with Us...I'm so Transparent about my Dating Life Not cuz I'm Fishing for a Mate, but Tha Lessons Have been Difficult, but I want others 2 Survive Like Me.

I've Kicked over Chairs and Put together 20 Cuss Word Rants in Tha Midst of Tha Frustration, but After it All I find that Everything has made me Better...so Instead of Getting a 7 or 8... Now I Date 3 X's 3.33's.

But, and I can't emphasize This Enough...There is a Unseen Sacrifice to Success...or Getting ur a Dream Mate or a Job or Whatever, that is So Totally Unseen...And I want All in This Galazy 2 See.

If that means I Look Soft or if I Lose a "Follower" Who Bloody Cares cuz if One Person Can Relate, Just One...I'll Keep telling Embarrassing Stories Of Tha So Called 'Failures' of Me.

I Beg...Don't Let One Person or One Moment Ruin Your Greatness...Trust Me, a Trust Gone Undone Can a Leave U With Some Doubt.

But Transfer that Energy into Remixing Yourself into Tha Greatest Edition Of You...And Soon All Those Haters Will see That Ur Quite Cool and it's Your Style They will Soon Mock.

Time is Still on Your Side...No Need to Hurry or Rush...Just Staying in Tha Moment will Hush any sounds of That Timeless 'Tick-Tock'.

Just Live and Don't Put So Much Pressure on Yourself...Were Tha Keys to Success That Were Handed 2 Me 2day...

And Today was Truly Tha Day I Heard that Once Bolted Door...

Unlock.

Galaxia!

Cheers!