Man...it's Nuthing like waking up in Tha Middle of Tha night and can't go back 2 sleep.
Everythang is Pitch Perfect Black...Tha AC Humming Has u Thinking ur at a Hotel on A Late Night Creep.
Thoughts of if I'm revealing Too Much in this Diary of Mine...Just Like a Porn Star Who hits a Home Run...We Too Go Deep!
Guess I'm too much of a Romantic...2 Much of a Geek at Heart...That guy at Tha Dinner Party who Flirts With a Beauty underneath Tha Table in Tha Middle of 'Jesus Weep'.
All I want 2 Do is Have Fun...My life has been Such a Rollercoaster Ride...From Sports to Band to College...A Party That Never Stops.
I washed upon These Shores of South Beach a long Time ago...To a Country where Sommany a Look At me Strange for Calling a Soda...A Pop.
Even Last Night Before I Nooded off, I had One of Those Intimate Rants...Tha Ones All Great Women and Men Have When they Want 2 Reach Tha Top.
How much More can I go? Have I Run outta Daddy Yankee's Gasolina? I'm Living Tha Life...But Not 'Tha Life'...Tha One Where I get Handcuffed By Fame and Success' Hottest Cops.
Somebody asked me, 'How is ur a Luv Life?...My response was that It's a Movie...I said its Tha Greatest Luv Story Ever Told...Just Hope it won't Be a Tragedy.
See...I always thought it would Be Cool to have Tha Emotional a Journey of a Superstar Documented Before They made it Big...When they were Sleeping on Tha West Hollywood Couch so Raggedy.
I Luv Autobiographies...LUV THEM! But they are told after Tha Fact...That's Cool, but I want 2 Know Tha Feelings While u were Struggling...Before Tha Red Carpets and Pageantry.
When u were on Tha Casting Call of Denial...After that Director said, 'Maybe Next Time, but u Can Grab a Donut Outside'...That's where Mr. Sandman asks if You Really Want Me.
So not Only with Me Having These Galatic Aspirations...In terms of Our Luv Notes...To put myself out here...Isn't So Easy.
Because I'm writing Before I meet my Wifey to be...I'm fighting if I should write something right now...But it's a Risk...What if I Never get that Babe who's There when My Nose goes Sneezy!
I'm not a 'Kiss and Tell' type of guy...Quite Tha Opposite, Very Secretive...But what is transpiring in our Life...Tha Lessons specifically Go as Hard as a Verse From Jeezy.
If I Date a Gal...Make out with a Gurl...Sleep with a Gurl, I'm not that guy who puts our Buiness on Front Street...so Tha Whole 'Hood Hears about it ...Like Miss Umbrella and C Brizzy.
Being This Free Agent of sorts...It's intriguing...Right Now I'm fighting Patience Like Never Before...Cuz U know Inside That Whoever Signs U, Automatically Becomes Tha Vegas Odds on Team To Beat.
Tha Dilemma I'm having on This 2:13am in Tha Morning is...How 2 Let Tha Matchmaker in Tha Sky bring me and Whoever Together when...Tha Past times It Seems to be an Impossible Feat.
Either This would Happen or That Would Happen...It's great to Live off of Ice Cream & Nuts but even Tha Grandest of Freaks Wants Some Meat! ( That should be Nominated For Sex Line of Tha Year!)
But u Wonder is There Anybody Who Has This Thirst For Life...This Forever Young Desire 2 Always Have Fun...This Person who Complements You like Tha Wheels on a Stroller Seat.
Now am I Thirsty?? Naw...I'm not That guy...'OMG! OMG! I got Her Number...She Called Me...We a Going Out....' I could Care Less Cuz I experienced Those Thangs and Still Wondered...Why?
I Luv Myself, and Don't feel Like...it's like that Fabo and Ne-Yo song...'I'm a Movement By Myself...But We're a Force when We're Together'...Having a Cool Gal is Just Tha Cherry on Top of an Already Award Winning Pie.
But there Has been Such a Curiosity To Why This Aspect of My Life...I Was Seemingly Born a Lover...Said Before, when I came out I saw Mama, Pops...And Looked 2 my left and Saw Cupid...One of Tha Few Days I've seen Him Cry.
I have a Great Life...I mean REALLY GREAT...but when People say U Can't Have Everything or Maybe Ur Just Meant 2 Be a Lifelong Bachelor...What's Tha Use of Having $ and Wardrobe if Nobody's By Ur Side?
"Bloody A!" I'm such a Complex Guy, and as I write this I probably E.T.'d another Gurl from Tha List...Which is Fine cuz U Want Somebody Who Can Step Up 2 Tha Plate.
Guy or Gurl...U want Somebody Who Luv's Tha Entire Package...100% In Tune...Not Just Her Hourglass or His Body By Jake.
We can talk about How good Somebody Looks...Heck, here in South Beach almost everybody is Super Hot...But What about if u lose a Job or A Pay Cut Happens That u Refuse To Take.
I Luv 2 Make out With Gurls...Should I Admit That?!! And Rubbing on a Gurl from Her Head Down Through Her Thighs...But Life Is More Than that, and It's in Those Moments You don't Want 2 See Guess Who's Real or Fake.
Over Tha Course of My Life I Have learned to Appreciate Gurls More in Their Entirety...Than just One Body Part or Aspect of Their Makeup.
Tha More More Experiences U Have with Attractive or Gurls in General...Tha More u look Beyond Just Tha Physical, and Want 2 Learn about Tha Real Her...And Her Makeup.
In a Lotta ways I feel that's When a Gurl is Tha Sexiest...When She's Not in Her Forever 21 Getup...When She's Not Rocking her Gladiator Kicks...When she's Bare Free...Sans Tha Makeup.
Cuz Now I see Tha True Beauty of You...There are No Smoke and Mirrors or Push Up Bras...I Want YOU...and Everything That comes With it...That's What sometimes lies Behind Tha Makeup.
A Battle that I've been literally In a Steel Cage Wrestling Match with God on is I'm Meeting Gur...Let me Correct that...Gurls are Meeting Me Everywhere but My life is Such that I don't Get to know Them.
It's like One Gurl Comes...Another Gal Comes...Just Imagine Throwing a Party at ur Mansion here on Star Island...Half Tha People That Show up u don't Even Know! Like Extras on Film.
So it's like So many Extras on Tha Set Right Now, That I'm Trying to Figure out Who's Part Of Tha Actual Cast...Who's Gonna be on Stage When I Win That Oscar or Freak of Tha Year Award From Lil Kim!
That's Some Good Stuff! And Exactly How I feel...I'm So Over of This Lifestyle of Huge Parties Where People who aren't Gonna Help Clean up Attend...I want A More Intimate Get Together Where Everyone There is a...Friend.
That's when u Have to remain Patient, which is Hard...U think My friends or Brothers and Sisters Didn't a Have 2 Be Patient...And I've Gone through More Stuff...That's Not Fair.
We all Have Egos Right...But after Hearing all Tha Stories of...'Me and My boyfriend did this...' 'Tha little one is walking now...'...U like, "And I gotta Deal with A Chick who Only wants to Play Golden Tee and Drink Beer??!"
I still believe That we Go through These Lessons for a Reason...I'm sure Every Great King or Queen Has to go through Some type of Adversity before They got there Castle or Lair.
Tha Road to 2 Ur Dreams Come True Can have a Lot of Detours on it...It can seem Like You're Cursed Or Somebody put Tha Voodoo Hex on you...Yeah. But No Matrer Tha Rain, Sleet or Snow U must Push on With No Fear.
I'm more Open Than Any Point in My Life cuz Within My Heart All I want 2 Do is Have Fun and Tha Taste of a Win.
Lately, I've wondered if My Dreams will ever Come True...Like Having a Soul of Batman Mixed with Mickey Mouse...I'm a Silly Dude...But I wondered Has it become a Sin.
I talk about Gurls and Life...Whoever Meets me or Hangs out With Me..Or Reads My Diary, I hope They Feel Our Energy of Luv and Fun...Because I PROMISE You...On Earth, This Won't Ever Happen Again.
It's 3:15am in Tha Morning...And I'm learning That Overcoming Doubt and Remaining True 2 One's Self...Are Tha Conquests A True Star Must Inherit...
Along With Always Luv and Have Fun...
Now U Have Galaxia's Book of Wisdom...And Zen.
Galaxia!
This is Gonna Be a Wild Day I feel it Already!!
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