"Tha Thorn Bed of Perfection."

Today's Post is interrupting a pretty cool evening as I have tha Documentary, "Scatter My Ashes at Bergdorf's" On Pause.
Guess it's something in Tha Air that is Leading Us to Pause 4 Tha Cause.
Have No Idea where today is gonna be Heading...Way My Life has be going it may be straight 2 Mars!
Talk about Cash...Or Tha Miami Life...Or Those Chicas who are always rocking High Heels and Nars.

Tha Ever Chase of Beauty...Ahhh Yes...Seems to be Tha Topic on This Sunday Evening Into Night.
Was Going through some of My Kicks earlier today...Many of Which Haven't Even Seen Tha Slightest of Sunlight.
Then Walked over to My Rolling Rack of Clothes...I Did say That...Like My Showroom Closet is Tha Envy of Napoleon Dynamite!
Have a lot of stuff Bro...I'm constantly weeding stuff out...Sometimes without putting up tha slighest of fights.

Had another one of those fiery "F@*!" Sessions today, Where Our Soul is Fixated on Getting Over This Hump.
'Enough is Enough' already, and we have to put those stresses and struggles of tha Past to tha Nearest Springfield Dump.
Not Sure What's Wrong With Me...One Moment I Feel like King Kong on Tha Empire State...Tha Next Feel like Anna Nicole before Her Implant Pumps.
Think I'm Going through what many go through after trials...Tha Thought that Perfection is tha Only way 2 Be noticed Or 2 Get Fame and Moolah  by Tha Lumps.

Just Gonna Let it Go 2night...Please 4give Me.

When You've Done Tha Best U Can or When Ur Back is On Tha Wall...That Can Make Ur Mind Go Crazy Beyond Letters of Alpha.
Wondering What is Tha Magic Potion to This Success?  How Can I Become a Boss like Ricky Rozay or Tony Danza?!
Mentally You Go Over Those Grammy Worthy Songs That Went Unheard and Rejected...Studying and Critiquing Every Single Stanza.
Thinking What Could You Have Done Differently...Maybe U Should Have Held a "Hug Me" Sign in tha Middle of Tha Lincoln Road Plaza.

Then You Realize that there is Nothing that You Could Have Done, To Get that Job, or Instagram Like or Guy.
I Have a Short Memory Yet A Long One...It's like I Can Have 4 Pairs of Seven Jeans, but I always remember That $5 Pair, at Tha Goodwill that I Let Slip By.
This is Where I Was At on Today...A little Heavy Burden on My Shoulders of All Tha Decisions I Got to Make...Everythang Has Been Multiplied.
Tha Money is in Tha Upper Hundreds...Tha Episodes of "Galaxia Gurls" Have gotten More Complexed, And Although Ur Confidence is Still There, There can be an Emptiness To Make U seem Shy.

That's Why This Beauty and Attainment of Perfection seem to wonder within...Trying To Understand If I'm Trying To Hard To Impress Instead of Letting it Come.
I'm that Guy Say for Instance...If a Gurl Doesn't Want to Be With Me, Then I Put My Head down figuring Out Ok...I Have to Work Out Harder and Now Look like a Versace Dressed Bum.
Or If Somebody Doesn't want to Hire Me for a Promotion of Sorts...In My Memory Bank I'm Determining that I'm Gonna Be Sexiest Combination Since That "It" Couple of Coke and Rum.
But That's Tha "Vince Vaughn and Kevin James"....People Always Say Perfection is An Illusion...But What Happens When Tha Perfection seems to Be Tha Only Option for Some.

I say that because after Years and Seasons of Sitting on Tha Casting Couch of Life...It Seems as If You have To Look Good, Talk Good, and Catch Tha Director on a Good Nite 2 Catch a Break.
Your History is Flawless...Your Portfolio is Fortune 25 Worthy...And Still It's Like Nowadays Tha Best Way To Get Ur Reality Show is 2 Turn In a Highlight Reel of U Skinny Dipping in Ur Local Lake!
U Try To Contain Yourself, Yet Inside You Feel Somethang Greater that is Yearning To Get Out...Like a Strip-O-Gram Popping Out of A Bachelorette's 6 Foot Cake!
Think We Wrote about That Tha Other Day...How Mega-Dreamers Have Such a Tough Time, Especially After Being Denied Our Dreams...Of Hearing Tha Ill-Fated Word...Wait.

Tha Kid Hear Can think of Many of Situations Where That Word Can Suck Tha Life Out of Every Tissue, Nerve and Bone.
Almost like Somebody at Tha Fair Plopping Two Scoops of Rocky Road in Ur Hand...Knowing it's of No Use Without a Spoon and a Cone.
Or Going To A Party And Seeing Pretty Co-Eds Reenacting MTV Spring Break 1998, Only To Hear They are High School Seniors, and Hoping 5 Years can Come so U Can get out of Tha Facebook Friends Zone.
When You Have To Forcefully Wait...When Even Your Best Friends Seemingly Don't...It Can Stink.  And U Feel like A Jack London Wolf Who's Lone.

When Ur at Tha Point...Where I'm At Now...Beauty And Perfection of It is like Tha Only Level That U Feel U Can Get Your Due.
Maybe U Should Get Surgery or Get Tatted Up like Tha Rest of Miami...Not Knocking it,  but being Different and Unique seems to have lost tha Bondage of Tha Glue.
As it Comes 2 This Wild Wild East Thoughts of Dating...Perhaps I should Lower My Standards and Holla at Every Chick That Can Walk and Chew Gum Simultaneously...Like My Homeboy Pepe Le Pew.
I Understand U Have to Learn...But this Journey is Just too wild...Every Moment is Brand New.

I was at This Grocery Store Tha Other Day, and I was Looking at tha Food at tha Hot Bar cuz I needed some Din-Din.
After a Minute or So, This Woman Walked Up right Next to Me, and Asked If I needed Some Help and Began to Explain Tha Rotisserie Chicken Deal It Sounded like a Win-Win.
She Then Walked Behind Tha Counter, Washed Her Hands and Then Stared at Me and Said, "I've Never Seen You Around Her Before", My Ears Then Perked Up Like Tha TV Star Dog Rin Tin Tin.
She Trying To Hit on Me...And You know I Got a Thang For Latina Women With Blond Hair and Sexy Lips...We Can Easily Go To Tha Produce Section and Show That Ballpark Franks aren't tha Only Natural Beef Sin-Sin!

Next thang I know it she is telling me in detail how she Luvs South Beach compared To Miami Proper...And Not Missing a Single Detail.
Citing How South Beach is So Free, and How She's Gone To Gay Clubs...And It's All about Enjoying Life, Even When You've Had Disappointments, Like Her Divorce...tha Size of a Whale.
It's Was Refreshing, and As she was Preparing my Food, She was Happy as Can Be...Ain't Gonna Lie, When She Turned Around I Had 2 Sneak a Peak At Her Booty...I'm So Nutty Like Chip N' Dale!
I Could Tell That Not Only Now, But Back in Tha Day She was Off Tha Charts...It's so Cool To see a REAL WOMAN Who Looks Good, Has Tha Experience and Confidence Behind Tha Beauty Veil.

She Hooked Me Up Too, With a Little Extra With My Dinner, I Appreciate That...I've just Wondered What is it with Women Though.
All Over Miami and South Florida, I've Had Experiences Where Women Who Work at Certain Restaurants Have Gotten To Know Me, Recalled My Order, or Hooked Me Up like a Superstar in Tha Know.
And So Many Have Remembered My Order...One Time I was at a Subway and three...Yes, THREE Women were shouting out my Order as I Walked In...I was a tad embarrassed 2 see this Show.
Tha Stories are Endless and I Wonder How Do they Remember Me So Well...It's Crazy...I try to Be Cool and Goofy as Usual...Not Trying to Show Off Any of My Dough.

A few Weeks Ago I Was Up in Sunrise, Florida by Tha Ikea and Stopped In This Joint to Get a Little Dinner Before I Went Shopping for Mirrors and A few other Thangs.
Right as I Walked in, I saw This Gurl Working, and Immediately I Thought, She's Easily One of Tha Cutest Gurls That I Have Ever Seen...A Shorty With a Personality Tha Height of A Yao Ming.
She was like Asian, With a Flawless Face, An absolutely Perfect Smile (Literally)...She was definitely Model Material...And Since I Used to Work For a Modeling Agency, I knew She was a Dream Queen 4 A King.
Inside, I think, 'This is About 2 Get Interesting'...And Sure Nuff it did...Almost like Watching Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera Have it Out inside of tha Celebrity Deathmatch Ring.

I was Professional, and ask for such and such...And Instantly she cracks a Jokey Joke and goes into Flirt Mode.
Dropping Her Guard as I'm Placing My Order, With Me Wondering if I should try to manipulate her mind, and go Straight Into Tha Neil Strauss Pickup Artist Code.
Usually I Don't Do This When I'm Travelling Alone, but This Gurl Was Giving me So much Rhythm, that I decided to Sit-in To Eat, So I Can Get To know This Gurl Who Can Make A Prince Out of Any Toad.
Sat Down, Began To Ask Her Questions About Tha Menu and Life...Her Personality Was Top Notch, and Showed Me That I Have To Now Add 'Outgoing' as a Must...Whenever I Date My Next Centerfold.

As I'm eating a very good dish, even a Meatball Sandwich That She Specifically Recommended I Try, This Group of High School Dudes Came In, and I just Sat Back And Watch it Unfold with a Silent Chuckle.
How They Came In, and Began to Talk To This Beauty, Was As If They Plotted To Stop by This Eatery, just So They Could See Her...Didn't know What 2 Say, but Hope She Would Choose 1 for a Couple.
Her Entire Demeanor Change, and She was Not Only Professional, but like Almost Bothered That These Guys Showed Up, Ignoring Them Basically without Any of Her Knees Giving a slightest Buckle.
I Sat There Like This is Crazy, but Not Unusual...I Walk In and this Gurl is Almost 'Tossing Me Tha Draws', While These Other Cats She's Insulted By...A Galaxia Standard By Tha Double.

It Happens ALL THA TIME...These Stories aren't Lies...Which is Why I Wonder if I Have So Many Gurls Who know and Don't Know Me See That I'm just a Goofy Dude, Who Enjoys to Have Fun.
Why is It That Our Love Life is So Complex, No Other Way 2 Put it...And To Find Another like it...Let's Just Say I Haven't Found a One.
Not Yearning for Luv...Just after so much U Wonder like My Pops said 2day...Simply "Why"...Cuz Inside Ur're like, 'Isn't it Obvious That I'm a Guy who U Can Be Real With and On No Topic Would I Run?"
When It Comes To Me...It's All Bout Fun...That's It...I've Lived, and I understand Tha Emotions of Gurls Pretty Well...Some Have a Ounce of Swag...Well....I Have to Say That I Got a Ton.

This is Tha Complexity That Has Been on Our Hearts, and I Can Tell More stories just to that Effect...When U Live a Life Like This, That's When Like Perfection Becomes Tha Only Level It seems...Or Tha Last.
It's As If You've Been Hurt for Such a Long Time, And You're ready To Become Normal...That's Why Your In Such a Rush To Take off That Hard Cast.
You Find That's Tha Problem Though...Ur Fighting Tha Process To Be Normal...Instead of Accepting Tha Fact That You Aren't, and Tha Process has Been Slow, So That U Won't Burn Out Ever So Fast.
That's Why as Difficult as it Seems, U Have to Look at Each Experience Individually, and Not as a Collective Failure...Learn Those Lessons, Take Them, And Understand That They are Stuck in Tha Past.

It's 10:30 pm....This Season has gotten Off to A Tough Start, Wasn't expecting This Out of Tha Gate...Feel like Tha '91 Bulls When They Started Their First NBA Championship Season Oh and Three.
Sometimes You Have to Be Molded and Humbled, so That You Can Appreciate Those Good Moments, and Many Rewards Come Only Through Wounded or Teary Eyes...Through Those U Can See.
Can't Give Up...Or Give In To Becoming Like Everybody Else...Have To Trust Tha Process and Understand That Timing is Everythang, Even Though Moments Seem if They are on a Constant Flee.
Fight For What You Believe In...Stay Centered in That Voice within Ur Heart...These are Tha Characteristics of a Real Gangsta...Not a Paper 'G'.

Didn't Really Talk About Beauty As I Wanted 2, but That Perfection Thang...It's nothing Wrong in Wanting Tha Best, and That's What Trial Do to you.
They Can Alter Your View of What is Important...Who is Galaxia Worthy...And Allow You To See that If You 'Wait' You Can Get Everythang You Want...Trials and Mountains, You'll Have More than Just a Few.
I Dreaming of Tha Day Where I Look Back at Everythang, and I appreciate That During Those Grey Cloud Moments, To Thy Soul I Remained Ever So True.
So Tonight...I Go To Sleep Dreaming...And Knowing That My Best Days Are Now Right Ahead of Me...

And Realize That Beauty Scars Make U Special...

And I've Never Seen a Warrior, Who At Least Once...

Wasn't Black and Blue.

Galaxia!
Let's Do This Thang!