After Dropping Several F-bombs minutes ago...A Spoiled Brat being Held Back from a Play.
Why Must I Go Through So Much Constantly...24/7...Trusting God in His Ways.
Others Have it So Easy it Seems...So Much Work, Wit a Tape Delay on Play.
Isn't How I imagined My Comeback post...I just Know there's another Tier.
I Have Such a Dream Life, but Everyday I'm Fighting Doubt and Possibly Fear.
I look into My Mirror and I See 'The Best Ever' look back in a Stare.
Yet it feels as if I'm Tha Lone Wolf...Who Believes in Luv, True Fun and Not just Trying 2 Smack Some Derrière.
Tha Road 2 Greatness and Finding Ur Dreams is Filled with Detours beyond Measure.
This Life of mine Has Been Filled With Hunts, Unable 2 Come up With Tha Treasure.
A Gold Coin Here, A Pearl Necklace There...Perfect Signs That Ur Dip into Life's Deep sea Is All for Tha Better.
It just feels like I'm Having Faith in An Impossible Mission...Like a Bird Trying 2 Fly Without Its Feathers.
I'm at a Point in Our life Where I feel like I've Earned Tha Best from Life...All Tha Sacrifices, Having 2 Watch Others While on Tha Bench, Hoping I Can get One Shot.
Laying in Bed in Deep Zen Meditation...With Tha Goal of Attracting that Dream Career, That Cool and Sexy Dame, That Commercial Taking up That Super Bowl Spot.
I'm a Big Dreamer...But Obstacles Or Lessons or Just Life Gets in Ur Way...Some Many Twists and Turns...People Coming and Going from This Providential Plot.
I'm just a Kid Who Wants 2 Have Fun...That's it Dude...I feel like My Life Is Just Entertainment For Tha Angels Above...Everyday They Grab Their Glass of Kool-Aid and Bowl of Corn that Pops.
Tonight isn't about Being Negative...But Gosh Darn-it...It'll just be Nice to Have Not what U Need But What U Want.
It's like Everyday ur Asking Santa For That Bicycle With Streamers Attached, And U Keep Getting Socks and Underwear, Which has U Thinking Christmas is a Deceiving Front.
All My Friends Have Bicycles, I See Them Riding around With Tha Wind and Their Gurls, While I'm Stuck on My Front Porch Bangin' That Song From 50 Cent and G-Unit...'I'll teach U How 2 Stunt.'
Hoping I Can Get Some Pointers 2 Why My List isn't Being Fulfilled but My Cookies and Milk are Still Gone...I Keep Choosing Nice over Naughty, but I'm looking like a Two Front Teeth Punk!
Of Course a Lot of 2night has 2 Do With Gurls...I'm not even in Tha Mood 2 Divulge...Everyday it's Someone New.
Although I'll just Say that Recently I met A Gurl Who Has That 'Galaxia It Factor'...I've Felt like I've Told Everybody I knew About Her, Cuz I Didn't know What 2 Do.
Beauty, Brains, Swag, Confidence, Dress...All At Tha Tender Season of Zero Two.
She deserves an Entire Post, Cuz it's a Fairy Tale of How it All Went Down...But She Hasn't Called Me...So now She's Just Tha Sexiest Animal in a Now Already Crowded Luv Zoo.
IDK...I'm Tha Most Innocent Guy You'll Meet...
My mind feels Like Stop Writing Right Now...I'm So Frustrated about Tha Process, that I don't Even Feel like Jotting 2night.
(Huge Blow)
I Close My Eyes and Dream of a Day Where I'll have Everything I've Asked and Pray.
Could Be Tha New Kobe's...Possibly Rhianna Tickets...Or 2 Be Represented By Tha Jigga Man...Or Hov or Jay.
My Eyes Are Close and I see it all...Smiles on their People's Faces like All is A-Okay.
Tha Relief From Tha Sacrifices, Tha Effort...Being a Champion like My Giants from Tha California Bay.
All Tha Moments U Wanted 2 Give Up or In...Cuz Nobody Wanted 2 Hear Ur Say.
Those Words of 'Fun'...'Luv'...'Forever Young'...Falling on Deaf Ears Everyday.
Being One of Tha Most Romantic Characters Whose Ever Walked, Rose Pedals Follow Wherever U
Stay.
Ready For Tha Moment U Find Ur Scarlett...Ur Katie...Ur Jasmine V...Ur Lovato or I Guess Too...Ur Bey.
Tha Harder U Push, Tha Closer U Get...Only 2 Find Constant Showers In Trying 2 Get 2 Ur Month of May.
Downpours, Rainouts, Thunderstorms Continue...But U Close Ur Eyes Because u Always Enjoy a Doubleheader Day.
U Feel like A Star...There's a Glow of Unseen Light...Knowing Once U Finally Shoot, Tha Sky Will Become Ur Bay-Bay.
Tha History of Defeat Will only Represent a Past Life...It Will become Ur SNL Weekend News Update..And Now Ur Tina Fey.
Those Unreturned Texts, Those Calls That Were Never placed...Folks Not Knowing That Spicy Gurls Aren't just Posh or Scare-Ray.
But That there's More 2 Ur Onion, More 2 Ur Soul...Crying Is Only Chicken Soup in Tha Kitchen of Dues Pay.
It's in These Nights Where U Close Ur Eyes, With Tha Only noise Is Tha Hum of Tha A/C Fan...A Sound So Stea-day.
Where U Imagine Tha Impact...Tha 'Will U Go Out With Me?'...Tha South American Beauty Who Accented 'Austin' is Her Only Ing-Glay.
U Understand That Life is More Than Tha Money or Tha Fame...Just Like That 'If I Could Dream' song by Elvis Press-Lay.
Wishing Someone Who Step Up 2 Tha Plate...Either To Swing For Tha Fences, Or 2 Eat a Steak or 2 Get a License Saying, 'JoinThafray'.
I Close My Eyes Envisioning Not Being Good, But Great...Up There With That 'West Dude' who invented 'Cray'.
I See it All...Late Night With Jimmy...Hosting Awards Shows With a Hearted Kev...Early Mornings on New York Radio With Sway.
Acknowledging That There's No Turning Back, Leaving Thoughts of Silly Rejections behind...Hitting Tha Acceleration on this Alley of One Way.
Seeing Tha Appreciation of Tha Struggle, Tha Joy in Receiving that 'No, I'm Not Interested' knowing It Gave U Great Stamina, Abs and That Dream Boo-Tay.
Now Ur In Complete Control, It's like Ur a Modern Day Midas...Everything Is Golden Around You...like Oscar De La Hoya and His Fam-a-Lay.
Tha Goose Has Finally Hatched Her Eggs....All Sunny Skies...No More Clouds of Gray.
Yeah, 2night I'm just Closing My Eyes...And My Soul has Gotten Tan-gay.
Cuz I Know That What I've Gone Through Has Warranted What I'm Gonna Get...And Now I Feel Like a Supermodel...Like Linda, Niki or Naomi or Cin-day.
I'm Closing My Eyes and Keeping This Faith of Mine So Blind...
And Just Like Jaime When He Won an Oscar...
U Can Do Amazing Things When U Close Ur Eyes and See...
There's A Light Of...
Ray.
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