Subject: 'Austin, You Date Only Absolutely Hot And Beautiful Girls.'
My Oatmeal is Sitting Next 2 Me but I can't Hold This in any longer.
There is So Much Surrounding My Life Right Now it's Incredible. My Life Just Keeps on Getting Better and Better.
Tha Relationship Between Myself and Women is...It's Wild.
Yesterday, I was On Tha A1A on the Intercoast from Tha Miami Mainland to Over Here in Tha Beach. I'm Jamming Out With Tha Top Up, Enjoying Tha Fact that I'm Almost Home. There's a Black SUV in Front of Me, Ok. Traffic begins To Slow Down...I Glance Off and Then Look ahead. When All of a Sudden I See a Beach Blond Woman in That Black SUV ahead of Me , Do a Quick and COMPLETE 180 Degree Turn And With a Camera Snaps A Picture of Me.
I'm like...'Did This Just Happen?!' There's Was No Sunset behind Us...Traffic Wasn't At Tha Typical 'I Hate Life!' Level just Yet...Whah??? So We Driving Along Some More, She's Alone in Her Car I See No Passengers, Kids or Puppies. We Come Nearer 2 SoBe or South Beach and Then Once Again I See Her Turn Around With a Real Camera, Not a Celly...A Semi-Pro Flicker and 'Snap-Snap!'...She Takes Another Shot of Me. It's Kinda Wild When Folks Take Pics of You. I Shoulda Told Her That She Needs to Sign a Confidentiality Agreement Before She Uses Those Flicks. My Life Is So Hollywood, Folks Just Don't Understand.
One Time, Not 2 Long Ago, I decided 2 'Go Get Some Air' on My Lunch Break. I Decided To Call Either My Mom or My Grandma Up North. I'm Literally Chillin' on a Park Bench When I See This Lady Walking Around With a Camera. Snapping Randomly...Then While I'm Looking at a Waterfall talking 2 My Fam, out Tha Corner of My Left Eye Lopez I See Her Pause With Her Professional Camera, and 'Flick, Flick, Flick!' Literally TMZ Style, and Then Walked Away. I Continued with My Convo, but It's Like All These 'Celebrity' or 'Future Heartthrob' Things Happen 2 Me Over and Over Again. Whether it Women Approaching Me in Parking Lots or...
This Past Weekend, around 7:30 pm on Last Saturday, I Decided To grab a Bite 2 Eat before Tha Warriors/Spurs Game. It Was A Hot Evening. So I'm in Beach Mode. Black Air Jordan Tank...Green 1980s Nike Sweats...Grey UGG Like Boots made by Toms...My San Fransisco Giants Cap Backwards. I was Buggin Up Giggling While Walking Cuz I was Thinking I Look like Those 'Vets'. Almost like That 'Uncle' or Brother in Law That is So Cool. With Tha Gold Chains, 'Man's Cologne'...Puerto Rico or Jamaica Hat on His Head. U know He's Tha Type Who Has Money, Then He Got That 'Secret Stash' that Neither His Kids or Wife Know About! I Luv Them Dudes, Y'all know What I'm Talking About.
I get 2 This Nameless South Beach Spot, and As Soon As I Got 2 Tha Register, This Mamacita Begins to Flirt With Me. Not Kidding. She's Saying all These like 'Small Talk' lines and Convo...Lets Just be Real, like Tha Kind of 'Chit Chat' people Talk While at a Bar. It's like U Give Fake 'Bru-Ha-Ha's', just 2 Past Time Cuz Tha Thing in Tha Back of Both of U All's Mind is 'I'm in Room Such and Such...I Got Tha Pony Head on Tha Stick, Tha Lucha Libre Mask, Tha Video Camera is Already in Position...Lets Get It On!'
So Shorty Was Giving Us 'Tha Smile'...Girls U Know What I'm Talking About! Talking About Why Tha Receipt Was Printing Slow. It was Not Really Uncomfortable cuz I Can Flirt and 'Get Real' Like Janet Jackson Says, "Anytime, Anyplace". It Don't Matter 2 Me but When Folks Are in Line Behind You Waiting 2 Place an Order its Embrassing Sorta, that Someone is Trying 2 Put So Much Sexual Energy on You...In Public.
Even 2day....I've been Holding Back on my Daily Life...I'm letting it Go and Giving u Tha Scoop.
Even Today, I was Here in South Beach, And I Stopped By Pollo Tropical and Went Through Tha Drive-Thru. Top Down on My Car Cuz it's A Sexy Miami Day Today. I'm jamming out to Ne-Yo's "Crazy" feat. Jay-Z. Place my Order (Two 1/4 Chicken Meals, Dark Meat Only, With Brown Rice With Black Beans and Pineapple Rum Sauce)...I Come 2 Tha Window See A Homegurl Whose Working Tha Speaker, We Mad Cool Cuz She Sees Me All Tha Time. Give Her My Debit Card and A Coupon and I See Tha Manager or Somebody. So my Homegurl is like, 'Did U Hear What He Said?' I said, 'Naw.' I guess Either Him or Somebody in Tha Back Made a Comment to My Homegurl That 'You Can Handle Him!' Interesting. She Told Him, 'I'm Too Young For Him.' I Reply, "There's No Such Thang As Age." Which There isn't...But it's Wild How Many Flirtatious Situations Cross My Path from Women and Gurls I Don't Even Know. Whether it's Cleaning Ladies At Motels that Barely Speak English Who When I'm About 2 Check Out All of a Sudden Wants 2 Get Friendly Beyond Tha Usual...'Knock Knock Knock! Housekeeping!' To 'Women of Tha Night' who Randomly Approach Me in Tha Most open of Places During Tha Day...Everywhere I go, it's Crazy. I Attract Beautiful Gurls and Women.
So My Luv Life has been in Deep Discussion Recently. My Life has Always Been Filled With Gurls. I've Worked At Modeling Agencies, My Summer Job was Working at Tha Beach...Then Playing Hoops all My Life, Living Here in Miami and More Specifically South Beach...Females Are ALWAYS Orbiting My Galaxy. (I Like That Phrase, Gonna Have 2 Copywrite That!)
It's been At Level Nine for Awhile...But ever Since New Year's Eve When Tha Ball Drop...Tha Experiences Have Been Dizzying. Now...
I Write This Stuff Not 2 Brag, but to Give a Real View on My Life. Everyday, Every Week...I just Want Super Cool, Super Beautiful Peeps in my Life. My Life is Fun! And it Attracts Attention...
So There was a Discussion Today That I Only Date or Want 2 Date Gurls Who Are Super Attractive Physically.
Huh.
Number One, Beauty is Subjective. I Mean I Like is What I Like. I'll Date a Size 4 Gurl just like a Size 18 or 22 Beauty. I Promise U I Would. So This Borderline Argument Was That I need Not 2 Just Look at Tha Physical and Tha Argument Was That Really Attractive Girls Physically Aren't Really 'Wifey' Material.
Ok.
Considering All Tha Junk and Bull...I Feel like Cussing but 'All Things Work Together For Good'...Considering All Tha Wild Episodes I've Been Through With Gurls I'll be Flat Out Dumb To Go After just 'Looks'. If u know Me, or Read This Diary U know That Having 'Fun' with Laughs, Smarts...Positivity...'Realness', Tha Want 2 Be a Player in This World and Not Just a Fan, Those Are Some of Tha Sexiest Qualities I Enjoy in Anybody, Male Or Female.
Too...If a Woman is Beautiful Physically, Why in Tha World Would I Stereotype Her Without Getting 2 Know Her? This Is Almost What This Diary is Based off of...Tha 'Hate' or 'Backwards Behind Tha Back Bullying' that Goes on Because Someone Is Wealthy, or Was Born With An Attractive Body or Mind or Spirit. In my Heart Folks Get Hated On For Being Intelligent (Even Though They Spend Hours Stimulating Their Mind)...Get Hated On For Having a Bomb Body...(Even Though They Are Working Out For Hours, Getting Proper Sleep, Watching What We Eat...While Ur Criticizing While Being Lazy And Giving Up on Life Binging on Netflix, When just a Five Minute Walk 2 Tha Mailbox Can Do Wonders To Ur Mind, Body and Soul).
Whenever I Hear This Kind of Talk I Feel like Whoever is Saying it May not Feel Adequate Enough Themselves. Oh, She's Tall, Blond, Big Boobs, Curvy Butt...I bet She's Dumb as Rocks. Then When They Find Out She's Not...'Oh, She Stuck Up! Look...She's Trying 2 Talk To Tha Quarterback...Flirting With Tha Smartest Guy in School.'
Be Confident. Believe U Are Sexy and Beautiful and It Won't Matter if ur 250 Pounds it Will Beam from Tha Inside and Then Ur Actions Will Follow Suit. U'll Dress Different...Exercise Different...Date Different...
So With Me...I'm About to say, If Not Already, Some Controversial Stuff So Stop Reading NOW If Ur Not in Da Mood. Somebody Got 2 Say This.
When Ur A 3-Dimensional Person...Somebody That Has a Fun Mind...A Caring Heart...And a An Attractive Body...This Image of Beauty, Much of Which Has been implemented by Tha Media and Society Since Childhood.
It's Tough 2 Date.
Guy or Gurl, it's Tough.
Some Guys Think Some Girls Are Just Trophies cuz of Their Looks.
Some Gurls Treat Guts As Dirt Cuz They Take Their 'Kindness For Blindness'.
Some Guys Are Intimidated Of a Gurl Who Has a Porn Star Body and a Cum Laude Mind.
Some Gurls Are Intimadated By Guys Who Are Too Perfect or Romantic...Even Though That's What They Prayed For.
Some Guys Don't Want a Girl Who Steals Tha Attention From Them When They Walk in Tha Room.
Some Gurls Pass Up on 'Nice' Catches For Tha Bad Boy...Only 2 Regret it When He Cheats, or Lies 2 You, or Doesn't Come Home For Two Weeks.
Some Guys Are Afraid of Gurls Who Are Too Nice, Too Tall, Too "Old" Because They Are Concerned With What Others Think instead of Following Their Heart.
Some Gurls Feel like A Guy Who is A Bachelor After a Long Time Has Issues or is a Playboy or Can't Hold Down a Relationship when Perhaps He's been in Career Mode or Hasn't Found a 'Real' Gurl Who isn't With Him Cuz of His Status or Money.
What I Always Feel is This...
Tha Field Dictates Your Standards.
Like...If U keep Getting Rejected By Tha Gurl Who is Truly Fine but isn't Confident In Her Looks, U Say...Ok. I Want a Fine Gurl, but One Who is Confident. It's not All About Looks. In My life, it's Been a Step by Step Process. Some People Are Super Confident and Cool, but...I'm a Guy Who wants 2 B...
Here's My Definition of True Luv:
I know I've Found True Luv When I Find Somebody Who Makes Luv 2 My Mind, Body and Soul.
All Three.
Not Two out Tha Three...All Three! And That's All Perspective and Personal Preference. I'm all a
Over...Geeky Gurls, Hood Rats, Church Girls, Tat'd Gurls, Workout Chicks...As u Notice Those are All Labels.
Just Because Somebody Wears Tha Same Dress 2 Tha Ball, Doesn't Mean They Wear it Tha Same.
People are Stuck So Much in Stats. That's a Gripe I Have With Online Dating. Wanting a Guy 6 Feet...Wanting a Gurl With 34 DDD Breasts...And Such Doesn't Gurantee Happiness. If Something Shall Happen to Those Desired Physical Attributes Do You Leave 'Em Stranded in Tha Hospital Bed? We All Have Preferences...Nuthing Wrong With That AT ALL! And Sometimes We Have Trends In Who We Date. Mine Seems 2 Be Stunning Faces...Anyways...But Dating and Even Friendship is More Than Making Luv or 'Bucking', U Want A Pure Heart As Well. And Someone Who Stimulates Ur Mind. Someone Who Does Guve U Butterflies When U See Their Number Pop up on Tha Phone. On That Long Drive a Home U Wanna Visualize How Good Ur Gurl looks in That Frederick's of Hollywood Bra and Panties With Tha White Pantyhose and Lace Garter Belt. ( I Luv That Look By Tha Way! Blame it on Tha 90s But I LUV IT!) Luv or Marriage or Courting, in My Mind Shouldn't Be Mundane. Make it Exciting! This is Tha Person U Like or Luv...Don't Hold Back Man. It's Scary, but give it Ur All. Nobody Wants 2 Be Hurt, but Sometimes it's Part of Tha Game.
Recently I've been Not Down, but...Disappointed With Some of These Last Episodes in My Life With Gurls. As a Possible Friend and Even Perhaps a Lover. I've Tried to just 'Be Me'. Which is just Wanting 2 Bring a Smile During a Long Day. So When U Try 2 Show Ur Different Than Tha Rest of Tha Creepers and Those Guys Who Just 'Luv Them and Leave Them'...When U Give Out Ur Number and They Act like Its Suicidal to Call or Even Text 2 Say 'Hi' or 'Thanks For Even Thinking About Me. I'm Not Interested In a Relationship, But U Brought a Smile 2 My Face.' Sooooooo...Many People Act Like Telling me 'No' is Gonna Set Me Off. Listen...Guys and Gurls Who Feel like Tha World Sometimes Bends Over Backwards 2 Please Them...WELCOMES an Honest Response. If I Have a Kid I'm Truly Gonna Tell Them...
"A 'No' is Better Than No Response At All."
Then U Got Gurls of All Races Surrounding Ur Life Flirting, and Such...U Think if All These Gurls See That Innocent Light of 'Fun and Luv' in Me...Why Doesn't Tha One I Really Want on My Team See it As Well? 99% want U, But U keep Running Into That 1%. It Hurts Cuz U Feel like Nobody Understands. I Even Sheeded a Tear...Shouldn't Even Admit This Stuff, Really Shouldn't...But When U've Gone Through So Much, For So Long...You Wonder If Anyone Will Truly See.
Anyone.
But If Any Guys or Gurls Are Like Me...Never Forget You Set Tha Standard. In How U Act, Joke, Dress and Definitely In How U Romance. Don't Hold Back...It's like Someone Asking A Question on Ur First Date, "Who is Ur Favorite Musician?" Inside, U Know it's Michael Jackson. But Since Ur Date is A 20 Year Young Gal From Columbia, Who Dresses Sexy and Such u Say, "It's Shakira! Or Paulina Rubio!" Thinking U Can Match Up With Her Secret Answer. Then She Blurts Out..."Oh, That's Cool. Mine is Actually Michael Jackson!" And inside Ur Like, 'Stupid, Stupid Stupid!' Cuz U Weren't Honest 2 Who You Are.
That's Why I Say...Go With With Ur Heart, Dude. If ur a Romantic Who's All About Smiles, Don't Get Frustrated If People Are Intimidated By That. Once Again...
If You're Used 2 Driving a Volkswagen, It's Gonna Take Time 2 Get Used To a Ferrari.
Everybody Doesn't Have This 'Fun' outlook on Life and Luv Like u Do. No Matter What They Proclaim or What Religion They Share or If They Grew Up in Tha Same City as You. I know I'm Rare Cuz I've Been Hurt Tha Most By Luv, (In My Opinion), Yet Still Is One of Cupid's Biggest Advocates. When I Should Be Like Most People And Become Jaded With Tha Dating Scene...Jaded With Dating Miami Guys...Jaded Saying All Hispanic Gurls Are Crazy...Jaded Saying All Black Guys Want is Sex...Jaded That South Beach Gurls Just Want Guys That Got Money...It's Not True. Theses stereotypes just aren't. And Even Though I Got Every Right 2 Give Up on Luv, and Even Turn My Back on God, I Still Believe in Tha Youthfulness and Innocence That Each 'Adventure' Can Bring. Being Heartbroken Hurts...But Tha Timing of Luv is Mysterious. It Comes At Tha Least Suspecting Moment. And If We Look, Luv Can Deliver Tha Person of Ur Dreams...
Some Want Theirs in That Big Brown Bloomingdales or Even Gucci Bag...
But Sometimes as I Keep Saying...Tha Best Gifts Sometimes Come Wrapped in Comic Strip Paper.
And Considering What My Definition of Beauty Is...
That's What I'll Have My Girl Wrapped in...And I'll Have it...
No Other...Way.
Always From My Heart.
Austin.
Toddles Til Next Time!
Bye.
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