6:27 am on this Morning Wrestling With Ourself on How 2 Make 2day So Rad.
Lot going On in Our Life Right Now, As We're Trying 2 Remain Happy and Not Sad.
This Journey is Teaching Us Things Like Never Before...Cupid's Son is Getting a Mind of Cupid's Dad.
Has Anyone Else Felt like They Are Overlooked and Underappreciated Even Though They are Special Beyond Means?
Like Everyone is Blind 2 Tha Fact of Ur Talents or Intellect or That U Look Good Whether in a Skin Tight Dress or a Pair of Vintage Jeans.
U go 2 Tha Supermarket and Its Tha Same People Every Week on Tha Cover of Every Magazine.
Inside U know Ur Just As Hot, Have Tha Same Fashion Houses in Ur Closet, Why is Life's Glass Jar Trying 2 Contain This Jumping Bean?
Everyday You Push and You Push, knowing That No One Ever Can See Tha Tears of a Clown.
Smokey Robinson may Have Written That Classic Ballad, Every Once In a While Tha Best Makeup Job Begins 2 Run Down.
There's a This Vision of How U Want Ur Life 2 Be...Perhaps Kids...A Dream Job...Or a Mate Who When u Say 'I'm Gonna Shock Tha World', Doesn't give a Frown.
I know I Want This Lifestyle of Fun, Laughs and Real Luv...Guess A Life With a Jessica Rabbit on My Side but Always Surrounded by a Goofy Gang of Friends...Like Charlie Brown.
There are Moments Where U Wonder if It's Even Worth It...I'm Working So Hard and it's like I'm Tha Only One Who Cares.
Tha More U Present Yourself as Different or Not Ashamed of Ur Goals or Ur Body...Tha More U Feel Avoided and Get "Who Do U Think U Are?" Stares.
U Turn Social Media Into Ur Personal Scrapbook...Tha 'Likes' may be Few, but Tha Important Thang Is 2 Get Ur Message of 'Luv' into Tha Atmosphere.
Knowing That You Might Be Tha Only One Who Sees What You See...I've been Looking For Tha Matching Shoe for Awhile, and Have Yet 2 Find Tha Mate 2 My Pair.
I was in Tha Dark, On Tha Toliet thinking, 'Why Does It Feel Like I Have 2 Be Perfect?"...U Know Just 2 Get This Long Awaited Shot.
Imperfection is Considered Sexy...At Least in My Book...But it's been as if I only Get One Good Pitch 2 Hit Every Month...Have 2 Be Barry Bonds Ready cuz I get Pitched Around A lot.
Then When I Do Get That One, And Possibly Miss It, I Come home and Wonder if I'll See something Like that Come My Way Again...Mentally Attempting 2 Connect Tha Dots.
What Did I Do Wrong? Could My Presentation Been a Tad Better? I Should Have Been Less Cliff Huxtable & More Biggie and 2pac.
U Can't Beat Urself Up For Tha Past or Lessons Learned, But after Decades of Watching Others Outside Playing While Ur Being Forced 2 Finish Up Ur Peas, There Comes That Point.
Where Ur Sitting at That Table Fighting If These Veggies are Really Gonna Help Me Anyway...Bobby's Mom Feeds Him Mickey D's Every Week and At School He Runs Tha Joint.
I'm Sacrificing Guaranteed Pleasure For A Truly Known Yet Unknown Future...I'd Rather Be Out Skateboarding, Kissing Girls, Instead of Being Prepared as Princess Di's UNICEF Successor Annoint.
It's Like Nobody Sees What Goes Behind Tha Scenes...Everybody Sees Tha Red Carpet Glow...But No One Cares About Tha All Day Work Filled With Hair, Nails and Stylist Appoints.
I'm a Pretty Happy Guy I Guess, probably Too Much When it Comes 2 Anything is Possible...Or "How Did You Two Meet?", 2 Me That's What Life's All About.
People May Say, 'I Would Luv 2 Be In Ur Shoes', Perhaps...They See Tha South Beach Pad, Premium Kicks, Curvaceous Girls and See There's Never a Reason 2 Pout.
But I'm More Than 'An Image'...More Than Just Wanting 2 Have Sex With "Supermodels"...Fun Is Truly What I need 2 Survive, and It Can Be Lonely When Ur Best Brings More Doubt.
Maybe I'm Britney Spears Stronger Than I Think, Sure I am, But it's like What in My Future is So Grand That I Have 2 Go Through So Much...Everyday is Like An Ol' School Mike Tyson Bout.
Probably Should Stop Writing cuz No One Else Has Felt This Way & I'm just embrassing Myself as Usual...But Whatever...
(Huge Blow.)
It's in Those Moments of Doubt and Defeat Where U Truly Find out Who You Are as a Person and How Tha Story is Gonna...Begin.
I'm not Tha Only One Who's Doing Everything In Their Power To Turn This Ship Around, Only 2 Look Up and See Tha Golden State Warriors Tally Another Win.
Tha First Step 2 Cherishing All U've Been Through Is 2 Luv Yourself. Not Hate Tha Breakups or Wasted Friday Nights, but Understand They were a Step Towards A New Trend.
Those Moments of "No, I'm Busy On That Day." Or emails of "Although Your Qualifications Were Good, We Decided to"...Has Molded You into Somebody Who Won't Break But Only Bend.
It's very Rare For a Sports Team to Go Undefeated in a Season...I was part of One in 8th Grade, and Let me Say We Were in Some Close Calls.
Buzzer Beaters, Controversy Whistles, My Guys Kieno And Kellen Aka 'KK' saving Tha Team on a Emotional Night Accross Town, It is Very Tough 2 Win Them All.
I Strongly Believe in Tha Law of Averages in Life...If U are True 2 Urself and Honest to Tha Life Itself...U May Experience A 'Drought' Season Where U Feel Deserted and Ur About 2 Fall.
But If U Continue 2 Be Persistent in 'Respecting Tha Game' and Treating Others How U Want 2 Be Treated, Then There's Gonna Be, It HAS 2 Be Seasons Where U Straight Up Ball.
Tha Problem That Has Haunted Me, and I'm sure Few Alike is When u Get Those 'Desert' Moments in Tha Beginning of Your Quest...Seems Not Fair.
Cuz You Have Nothing to Say, Ur On Tha Right Track, No Basis For Success like I Gave This Gurl A Tiffany Bracelet and She Went Wild...Rejection in Tha Beginning Opens Ur Eyes like Headlights and a Deer.
For One Has to Super Strong, Heavily Convicted in What are They Doing or Who They Believe in, Or Else For Every Defeating Moment Ur Gonna Be Shedding a Tear.
Compared 2 Having a Benchmark 2 Rely on, Some Kind of Glimmer 2 Say, "Yes, I'm on Tha Right Track." Or "I've Done This Before." You're a Trailblazer, that's Being Forced 2 Have No Fear.
That's tough 2 Do.
Very Difficult.
It's in These Times Where Success isn't Your Motivation but When Failure Becomes Your Best Friend.
Ur Premium Fuel Isn't Based on What's Worked, But in What Hasn't...As Ur Gassing Up, U Can Hear Tha Gulps From Tha Gasoline Whisper...Never Again.
So U Stay In Tha Lab...U Continue 2 Eat Clean While Others prefer a 'Cheat Day'...U Become Determined 2 Show Urself First, then Others That Them Saying 'No' Actually Helped You 2 Win.
Sometimes U Feel Alone...I know I Have...But To Tha Best of Ur Ability You Must Believe That Your Time Will Come, and That U'll Order Bottles of Success and Become Renewed Like Tha Man of Tin.
Also, another Step is 2 Stop Comparing Ur Life To Others...One, it'll Drive U Crazy....And Also, U never Know What Goes On Beyond Close Doors.
Growing up In Indiana, I got or Had That Midwestern Mentality of Getting Married Sorta Early, Having Kids, Spending Saturday's Cutting Grass, And Doing Other Nick Nack Chores.
I've Questioned A Lot, like How Did I End Up Here? Still Single, Still Waiting For That Bookoo Money...When ALL of My Guys are Married or Dating, and I'm Still talking Bout Luv's Golden Floor.
I do Have a Great Life...Don't Get Me Wrong...But Despite This Diary, What I've Experienced or What Gurls Have come in and Out My Life, I still Haven't Gotten Loose like Diddy and Pharrell's Allure.
So As I Walk out Tha Gym and Literally See $3 Million Worth of Cars in Tha Lot...or I See A High School Guy and Gurl Hugging & Eskimo Kiss I Wonder...How Did I Get This Script?
Even Though I Have Material Gain, I know That Money, and Burberry Polos and Six-Pack Abs Aren't Tha Only Goals in Life...One of My Goals is 2 Have a Night Full off Lucha Libre Masks and Catwoman Whips!
But if I Know What Life Should Be About (F-U-N & Luv)...Then Why is It So Hard 2 Find Others or Somebody Who Feels Tha Same Way...Kinda Makes Me Sick.
Cuz it's Like Others Get Those Chances, Even I Wish I Had...And They Blow Them...Not Treating Their Gurl With Respect or Disrespecting My Dream Job, Makes u Want 2 Tell Life, My Booty it Can Lick.
My Grandpa Though, used 2 Tell Me, "You Never Know What Goes On Behind Closed Doors." Just because Somebody Looks Good, Doesn't Make Them Good To Be With or Live With.
Us Guys Especially Put Up With a Lotta Crap From Some Gurls Longer Than We Should Cuz They Look Hot or Are Sex Goddesses...Even Though They're Personality is Empty and Stiff.
Girls Too...Vice Versa...But I have Seen...Let's just Say Beautiful Women are attracted 2 Me...And I have Wondered Why This Dame or Cool Girl Isn't Mrs. Galaxia after We Shared A Whiff.
Just Cuz Somebody Has Tha Looks if Tha One...Or Even Similar Interests...Doesn't Mean They Are Best For You...Maybe Something U Don't Know about them Doesn't Make u A Good Fit.
I'm Big On Consistency...In Terms of Dating and Taking Care of Urself Through Time...I Want a Female Who's As Beautiful As When I First Met Her.
Somebody May Say, 'That's Unrealistic', and Those are Exactly Tha Folks I Don't Want to date. Cuz I got Numerous Examples of People Who Look Good and Get Sexier With Time...For Sure.
One Never Knows Tha Future, but There Are "Lifelong Habits" That U can Possess That Will Lead to Eternal Youthfulness...Tha Joy of Laughter is Just One of Them...So Always Let Ur Giggles Pure!
There's Nothing Worse Than Somebody "Letting Themselves Go" after They Got Their Man or Gal...Always Strive 2 Get Better & Better...And Life Will Give U More and More.
Fin.
So Today U got Tha Whole Gauntlet Of My Trials and Motivation...Probably I'm Revealing Way 2 Much, but This What's Going On.
Within Tha Last Week or So I've Been just Fed up With Having 2 Be Patient, Cool and Gourgeous Girls Coming In and Out My Life, I left "Tha Swamp" but I Still Felt Muddy Weeds In My Thong!
My Life Has Been a Dream...But Also At Times Felt Like a Never Ending Nightmare...One Day I Feel Like Tha Golden Child...Tha Next it's Like, "What Else Can Go Wrong?'
But A Stirring and Stunning Plot, Always Makes Tha Most Unforgettable of Epic Tales...
I've Written Before, But Today Our Post Sings...It Once Was A Solo Act but Now and Finally...
Our Life Has Become A...
Sing-A-Long.
Galaxia!
With Luv.
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