Hugh Hefner.

I Honestly Didn't Know if I Would ever write again. But here we are on this Saturday Morning, so
We're just gonna Let everything Flow. Our Emotions, Our Soul... Our Heart.

(Huge Breath) 

So much has been going on, as I've been climbing this Mt. Olympus of Fun and Love.

There Have Been Moments Where it has seemed Tha Script Has been tampered with By Tha Great Screenwriters up Above.

One scene it feels like Life is Ever So Grand...Mulah in ur Pocket, Sexy Dame in Ur Life, Whose Soul Fits Yours like a Hand in Glove.

Tha Next it Feels Like Nobody Wants 2 Be a Part of Your Cast...He's Too Young...Too Ambitious...Tarantino Should Direct my Biopic...And Name it...Black Dove.

There Have been a Lot of things going on lately, which has tested my Heart like never before.

Never in my life Have I Been So Fed up Sitting on Tha Bench, Constantly in 'Zen Mode' trying not 2 Look Up at Tha Board of Score.

Haven't I Paid My Dues Enough? Why Won't They Just See? How Come I forced 2 Wait For My Turn, Time may be Running Out 2 Leave My name in Tha Notes of Folklore.

I'm Doing All I can, Leaving No Stone Unturned, My Energy of Fun is Bubbling Over, but I'm Being Withheld from Tha Game...This Once Was Cool, but now it's a Total Bore.

Then I'm Getting Hammered like MC, With People telling Me Tha Gurls I Date or What Not Are Too Beautiful, This I Will Never, Ever, EVER...Understand.

Like There's This Belief That I only Care about Looks, or I'm Single Cuz I Attract Really Sexy Dames, So Tired of Hearing That I need Ear Muffs Tha Size of Oscar's Garbage Cans.

It's a Complete Disservice 2 Women in My Belief 2 Think One Can't Be Intelligent, Caring and Attractive...2 Think if a Gal is Pretty She Then Must Have a Brain Full of Sand.

I hate it, When I Hear That Talk...HATE IT! I'm Tha Most Open Guy When it Comes 2 Tha True Beauty of Women...Especially Despite My Arse Being Fried Too Much in Luv's Frying Pan.

Nowadays, I Desire Tha Entire Package...Not a 'Perfect' Mate or Gal...But a Doll Who is Well Rounded...Some Pancakes aren't Made Like Others.

But this Thang Where Gurls Think I only Date '10's' Physically Goes Way beyond Looks, Boobs, or All Those Things Given 2 A Gal Fron Nature's Mother.

I just Refuse 2 Let Anybody Define What I Like in a 'Galaxia Gurl' ...Humor, Sense of Style, Inner Strength and Positivity...A Will 2 Never Give Up No Matter How Tall Becomes of Life's Big Ben Tower.

For Her or For Them, I Would Do Anything in Tha World 2 Bring a Smile or a Giggle...Letting Her Decide How She wants Her Luv Steak...Well Done. Medium Rare. Or With Gravy Poured On You All Hot and Smothered. 

So many people Has an opinion on my life...Others have Their likes and Dislikes...Tats, Big Hips, Geeky Gal Who likes Harry Potter and Hello Kitty...Then When I want Tha Finest of Tha Fine...Opinions Ric Flair.

This is Such a Topic That Others like myself are Going Through...Which is Why Tha Dating Scene is So Jacked Up like a 2nd Grader in Charge of 'Truth or Dare'.

U date This Person and They say, 'You Can Do Better.'...U Court This Person, 'She's just All About Looks.' So U know ALL About Her from 6 Pics from Tha Photo Booth at Tha Instagram Social Fair.

There's So much Jealousies With Guys, but Definitely Within Tha Gender of Gurls...I luv Tha Movie Mean Girls...But I feel so many Females think A Woman can't Be 3-D...And if they Are, those Are Fake just 2 Make All Tha Guys Stare!

Here in Miami...Outer beauty is Looked upon in High Regard...I've Dipped My Pen in All Types of Ink, but a Lot of Hispanic, And American Mothers, Daughters have Told Me Tha Pressure of 'Tha Look'.

Just because Tha Gurls I Date Look like Runway Beauty Queens Doesn't make Me a Snob or Whatever...Just like a Gurl Who dates Rich Guys Doesn't Make them a Golddigger...I Really need 2 Write This Book.

Sometimes People just Attract Certain People...When Tha Rice All begins 2 Boil over Anyway, it's Totally about Tha Connection Inside Anyway...That's What Separates a Vet from a Rook.

If U Hang Around Models, Around Cosmetic Salespeople or If u Work With Wall Street Businessmen...Then Ur Eye or Tha Odds of Who's Checking You out Increases That it's Gonna be that Type of Person from that Nook.

I'm very unique because I don't look at Gurls like...That's Cindy With Tha Pretty Eyes...or That's Teresa With Tha Big Booty...I'm So Over Classifying Women by Body Parts, It Makes Me Sick like Pink.

I've Always just been like 'What Up Tina!' Or 'Yo! Yo! Yo! What They Hittin' for Claudia?!' A Lot of Girls have Enjoyed Being around me Cuz I'm Real and Not just Looking at Them as a 'Thing' in Amor's Kitchen Sink.

That's why When Females Make Judgements on Who I Date, I Get Hella Mad cuz They are looking at Other Gurls as a 'Physical Thing' and not as Somebody Who Has a Mind To Think.

To be honest, it feels like They think They are on Tha Outside looking in, When it Comes 2 Physical Attractiveness...That's not So, cuz YOU NEVER KNOW Who likes Ur Style...So Luv Yourself For Who U Are...Even if Ur Eating Spam, Believe Ur Beautiful like a Fur That's Mink.

As I was Saying, I've Had Tha Coolest and Most Beautiful Of Women, Inside and Out, Tell me Secret Things...Which is Why We Shouldn't let Society Brainwash ourselves 2 Think What is Sexy or Not.

It really does Start at a Young Stage in Our Lives, and it Takes a While 2 Get Rid of Those Misconceptions...Like Big Breasts Equals Super Hot.

I had a Gurl tell me She Hates Her Boobs Cuz They Get in Tha Way, Trouble Finding a Bra That Fits...You sweat in Between Them...Girls are Real with me, So I have a Totally Different View and Acquired Taste of Beauty's Pot.

We Automatically Assume Cuz Somebody has 50 seasons on This Earth or If Someone Is a Movie Star or Model, that They've Seen as Much as You have...'Oh, Everybody Throws Themselves at You! U got Gurls Or Guys Lined Up'...Not So. Assumptions Without Knowledge needs 2 Stop.

So 2 Be Frank Gehry With You, I'm Just Gonna Build This Masterpiece of Luv and Fun and Not Give a Horton The Elephant 'Hoot!' About What People Say.

Cuz They Have No Idea What I've Gone Through...Folks Saying Ur Super Hot, Super Cool, Yet Still Wondering If I'm So, Why I'm Running into Tha Wrong Gal or Tha Taken One...Will it Always Be This Way?

I've NEVER Judge Who My Friends and Family Dates, cuz Luv is Luv, and Each Apple is Different...Co-Workers Too...Even as a Kid I've Always Thought it was Cool That Someone's Soul wanted 2 Interact With Another's For Even just One Day.

I've Gone Through So many Inexplicable Lessons, Cuz I've Never Found That...I'm Cupid's Top Apprentice, But Nobody's Come Into My Workshop, Many Have Peeked Their Head Inside, but No One Has Ever Stayed.

So now Has U Hear Tha Chatter or You see So Many 'Being Themselves' and Hooking up Through Relationships or Having Kids, Inside U Tend 2 Think, 'With Me is There Something Wrong?'

There Must Be A Crime for Wanting 2 'Be Epic' or For Desiring 2 Be Among Tha 'One Name Legends', How Come I must Go Through So Much Pain before I Take a Puff From Luv's Bong?

U think I Must be Intimidating to Some People or How Can This 'Type' of Person have a Shorty and Not Me, I have 2 Deal With Haters That are Mad That my Taste Attracts Gurls With Good Brains and Who Can Model Edible Thongs.

I have Never felt So Alone on This Journey 2 Fun, Luv and Greatness...Felt a Tad Abandoned like That Leftover Piece of Lettuce That Sits Silently in Tha Bowl, Never Feeling Tha Anticipated Grasp of Those Prongs.

Listen...I'm not Trying 2 Get Married or Have a Kid, I just want a Galaxy Where Fun is Around...But I'm Not Gonna Shortchange Myself for a Nickel When Personality and Heart is Made for a Dime.

Never let Anyone Determined What Your Standards of Success or Luv are...Their Views are Skewed By Their Experiences, Not Yours...And In Many Instances They are Super Jaded By Time.

Always Seek advice from Credible Sources...That's Cool...But YOU Decide What Makes YOU Happy...If it Means Dating Someone Everybody Hates, Don't be Blinded but Be Strong in Deciding Who Brings Your Life Tha Most Sunshine.

Sometimes Folks Wish You Liked Them or Had a Guy or Gurl Go 'All Out' to Win Their Heart...Everybody isn't a Gonna be Joyous You Got Tha Hottest Guy or Gurl...Matter of Fact Most Will HATE Tha Fact U Two Can Share V-Day Candy Hearts That Say, 'Be Mine.'

Quick Story...

A Gurl Will Never Hook You Up With Her Friend if She Wants You For Herself.

I recall Working at this One Place. I knew This Chick. Tha thought of hooking up or You know, 'Banging' her really never did occur. Personally I thought she was attractive in her own way. Pretty Blue eyes, her body was Pear Shaped which was cool, Personality was tight. She worked a Lot, i know she made Big Bank, but her demeanor would never make u think she was Wild. Not a Party Gurl, but She was More Donna Karan instead of DKNY.

Somehow or another we got to talking about relationships and dating. It was really a good conversation, a lengthy one if I remember correctly. Tha more I talked 2 her, Tha more I felt like she was a hidden gem. Ok. So I knew by her position that she had her hands on some very eligible clientele here in Miami. Never was I trying 2 use her, cuz she was a Homie for real. But I somehow said, 'You should Hook me Up With Da-Da-Da-Da-Da!' Like I said, She Knew Some Top Shelf Gurls Who Were Cool, Pretty and About Their Thing. (Hidden Definition There On What it Means 2 Be Top Shelf) Tha Crème De La Crème Fa sure. "Oh, I Got You Austin! ...Yada, Yada, Yada..." Think she even mentioned that I Would be a 'Great Catch', That 'How Are You Not Dating Anyone?' Talk...If I Had a Dollar For Everytime Someone tells Me Either of Those Things...

Freaking Nat Flying around me Here. But Anyways...I was like Cool. I'm about 2 Hook up With one of These Miami Beauties or a Coral Gables Doll who's real and Has Some Substance. My Homegurl Ain't Gonna let me down. So I would see this Chica but Still...No response...Nuthing...No Prospects...She might've Added a 'I'm still looking' quote during these passing weeks cuz I knew That She Knew That Something wasn't right. I could feel it in Tha air when I saw her.

That's When it Hit Me.

There's two more episodes that I want 2 Devulge right now but I won't. But...it Taught me Guys and Gurls are Different. I know...'Duh!!!' Right....

If a Gurl is or Isn't Taken...She WILL NOT Hook You Up With Somebody That She Either Wants or is Possibly a Better Catch Than Who She is Dating Herself. I wish a Gurl could email her response 2 All This Nonsense! ( austinogalaxia@gmail.com ) 

But I say that cuz, we all want Tha best person for us. Not everyone who is in a relationship is Happy. Nor is everybody Who is Single Sad. For Me and Myself, Tha Both of us...Ahh, I keep saying this, we aren't Thirsty or in any type of hurry 2 Get Married, Heck, I May not Ever 2 Be Honest Abe With Ya. But I'm just So Curious to Why I've gone Through Soooooooooooo Much Where All I've Wanted was This 'Simple Life' Gwen Stefani Croons About and just Have Fun. I've learnt Though, even With This 'All Your Gurls Are Gourgeous' Theory...My Background is in Fashion, Working With Models, Spending loads of Days and Nights at Tha Beach up North and Here in South Beach, so I'm around a Lot of Gurls, lot of Skin, lot of "Looks". But it's a Bloody Insult to think that's All I Care About. And Even With That, if U've Gone Through Tha Stuff I've Gone Through You Would Have Either Killed Yourself (Not Kidding, Man) or...Said How Close to Tha Best For Me Can I Get? Mentally, Physically, Spiritually and So On...I may make It look easy through This Diary or When You see me in Tha Streets but 2 Keep Your Head High When Your Battling Career Choices, When You Feel Left Out of Tha Game You Should Be Starring in, When You Feel like Nobody Will Understand You and When Someone Does, You've Wasted Valuable Time 'Paying Ur Dues' while Others Got Theirs Without Having 2 Experience Tha Pain, Unwarranted Rejections, and Having So Many Look at You in 'This Light'...It ain't Easy.

It's been a Step by Step Process but even with That, I'm at a Yankees mentality Where it's Championship or Bust.  I've learned Too Many Lessons to Where I want to go it seems...But you remain patient. Recently I've learned not to put everybody in ur business. Keep Who I have my eye on more private. Cuz why should I be asking Some folk for their Advice when in Reality They Should be Asking For Mine?! When I'm here at My Showroom In Meditation I just Think about Tha Episodes and Gurls and realize This Truly is a Unique Position I'm in. Trying to find someone Who can Really relate is Like Finding Tha Boardwalk Piece in Tha McDonald's Monopoloy Game. But Tha Mindset that keeps me motivated is...

Widen Tha Gap.

It May Stink. It May Suck. It may Not Seem Fair, that you have 2 Keep Elevating Yourself to a Level where Finally Someone gives You a Chance or Finally That Dream Job Comes Knocking at Your Door, but U Gotta Do What U Gotta Do. Cuz I'm Totally Over Mediocrity. I am. Whenever I see a $20 million Contract Signed or I see a High School Guy and Gal walking Hand in Hand on Meridian Ave., I think They Will NEVER have 2 Go Through What I've Have Gone Through...For So Long. This ain't Conceitedness or Cockiness it's just knowing that Ur Fed up of Putting in Tha Effort and Not Seeing Tha Results. This Dam has gotta Break, Man. It has to...It just Has To.

I Still Say 'Be You.' Tha Results will come. I believe in Karma...Big Time. Stay focus on You. Put Tha Blinders on. Lately I think Some Have Kicked me To Tha Side Cuz I'm Too Focus...Or Too Real...Or Talk Too Much about Luv, Dating and Relationships but You know What, As I lay Here in This Bed about 2 Go and Take a Leak, I realize That Someone needs to say Something. It may not be Popular, it May keep me at 70 Followers on Instagram, probably 59 after they read this, but This Vision of Luv and Fun is Real. Not a Gimmick. When I Discuss Dating and Tha True Essence of a Gal, That's  From my Heart and Much of These Observations are Carved from Rejections and Gurls NOT Wanting to be With You or...For Attracting So many Gals that are 'In A Relationship' yet Find YOU as Their Only Outlet or Relief from The Reality of 'Their Man'. Those situations are tough 2 deal with...Over and Over...And Over...Again. But U remain Strong and Onward We Go.

If U Luv Me or Hate Me, I just want All to See Tha Real Me. If a Gal Comes along that Finds Myself and My Lifestyle Irresistible, as Jessica Simpson Once Sung, Super Awesome! If Not...What Tha "Bleep!" Can You Do. It's Outta My Hands and That is Something I can't Control. What I can Control Is Top Notch Effort, Always Be Ready and to Execute Every Lesson that I've Learned to Take Life and Luv to Tha Highest Level. Tha Dr. Dre Aftermath of that Whether That's Marriage or 'Tha Best Ever' will take Care of Itself. My focus is To Keep Getting Better, Using Everything as Motivation and Prepare myself As if I'm Somebody's 'Dream Come True.' 

My Soul has been revealed Too Much 2day, so I'll stop.

Luv and Set Tha Standards. And Always Remember...

Just because no one Comes 2 Tha Party, Doesn't mean it wasn't a Good Party.

It Might be Tha Best Party...No One Ever Attended.

Galaxia.