Seemingly it's in Tha Air To Write on This Saturday Night, So We'll Proceed.
Boy, Our Life Has Been Crazy Beyond Words...Oh, Yes Indeed.
Let's See Where This is All Gonna Go...Think I Need Some Mardi Gras Beads!
Beautiful Women Everywhere I Turn, People Approaching Me in Lines...Life is Of Intrigue.
Right Now It's Hard 2 Stay Focus...Yet Easy, Cuz I Still Don't Have Tha Food I Need.
Being Patient, Sticking To Your Morals....They Say That's True...At Least What I Read.
When Ur In Tha Midst of This Battle, So To Speak, U Wonder Where Is Tha Door 2 Succeed.
Hold Up...I'm Not Feeling This or Where This is Going Right Now. I need To Be More Honest With Myself on What's Really Going on and Write This Like I'm Tha Only One Who's Gonna Ever See or Not See This Thang Again...
Let's Start Over.
There's a Fire Burning Inside of Me, and I Wonder If I Can Give It One More Go.
So Many Times I Have "Moved On" From Tha Past, Thinking About Tha Cookie and Not Tha Dough.
It's Frustrating When Over and Over U Have 2 Prove Urself...Having To Stage a Oscar Night Show.
When Doors Seem Not To Be Opened, U Wonder, Do I Really Have This "Fun and Sexy" Glow?
People Will Be Surprised How Many Times I Lay in Bed, and Simply...Dream.
Seeing Clear as Day, How My Future is Gonna Be..All Tha Scoops of Grass-Fed Ice Cream.
Even As I Talked To My Folks Today...U Just Know That This Coupon of "Dues Paid" is Gonna Be Redeemed.
It's Tha Process of Accepting Tha Steps Leading To That, Which Stinks...Feel Kinda Lonely Without a Team.
Not 2 Sound Conceited, but I Know Tha I'm Tha Rarest of Tha Rare...That 1% of 1 Percent.
People Look at Me Strange When I Share Stories of My Normal Life...Of This Clark Kent.
We Wonder, What If I Was Like Everybody Else...Dating, Got Kids, A Gig...Quality Time Always Spent.
Why Did God Give Me This Script? I'm Just a Guy Who in This Galaxy Wants To Leave a Dent.
From My Love Life To Job Situations...Our Soul Has Been Tried For A Very...Very...Long Time.
Right When U Think U've Met a Cool Gal or What Have You...Something Else Comes Up Blind.
As I Said Before Ur Left Wondering What Else Can You Do...I Thought I Had Tha Ultimate Body, Soul and Mind.
You Shake Ur Head Like Another MVP Year Wasted Without Tha Championship...Anybody Better, I don't Think You Will Find.
I Was Walking To Anatomy 1220 To Get a Workout In This Afternoon, Trying To Wonder What is Tha Motivation Still?
You Feel Maxed Out, But Still Have Something 2 Prove, It's Just Tha Mustard-ing up, and Finding That Will.
When U've Done it Over and Over Without Tha Results, a Part of You is like, "It May Not Be Meant 2 Be", and U Might As Well Take Tha "IGIVEUP" Pill.
Why Is It So Hard? Why Does It Have 2 Take Me Sooo Long? Feeling Like It's Better Off Being Any Kind of Run of Tha Mill.
It's Funny, I Can In Some Ways Feel A Certain Luv For Me, Turn Into "Hate" Cuz I've Been Holding Back A Lot.
You Almost Can Sense a "Dream Lifestyle" Coming Your Way, But People Will Never Understand How Difficult It Was 2 Get To Tha Plot.
They May See Tha Money, or Fame or Body, and Think it Was Easy, but Our Life In Some Ways Is Something I Don't Even Want 2 Jot.
Let Me Explain Something That I Was Thinking About Today...While Driving after Laying on Tha Cot.
Lately I've Been in Zen Mode...No Phone...No TV...No Radio While Driving...Just Silence Piercing Tha Air.
This Morning and Afternoon, I ended Up in Fort Lauderdale...Don't Know How, but With Me U Never Know Who, What , When and Where.
As I Was Riding, a Thought Hit Me, One That I Never Thought About Hard, After Thinking Upon It, I Should've Grabbed a Cold Beer.
What If You Had a Choice, like a Truth or Dare Choice....Would You Take Tha Easy Route or Choose Dare.
"What If It Was Told You That You Would Have a '10' Lifestyle...But It Would Take You 20 Years."
"Or...I Can Give You an '8' Lifestyle, That Would Take You Diez Seasons, Not Having To Work Out Any Fears."
I Was Thinking, Perhaps Tha Life I Want Takes 20 Years To Master Tha Steps, From Our Maturity, To How I Treat Luv and Women, Tha Journey Tests If U Really and Truly Care.
What Are U Willing To Sacrifice To Get Tha Dream Job, Tha Best Babe Available...Are U Willing To Look at Tha Mirror When U Have That "Not This Time" Type of Stare?
With My Ego and Drive, I Always Want Tha Best...Tha Most Beautiful Woman in Tha Room, Clothes Made in Italy and France...Just So That Nobody Else Can Claim.
If U Tell Me If I Eat This, This and This, and I'll Be in Tha Most 'Tip-Top' Shape, I'm Immediately Changing My Diet on an Instance Like Tha Mind of Tha Insane.
Guess It's Just a Part of Me, I Can't Even Walk Behind Somebody on Tha Sidewalk, Cuz I Have This "Carve Ur Own Path" Mentality 2 Maintain.
I Wanted These Thangs When I Was a Small Kiddo Up North in Indiana, Not Truly Understanding That Tha Process Would Bring.
"Beauty Is Pain", Never Forget When Janice Dickinson Said That On "America's Top Model", It Was Like A Landmark Moment 4 Me Like Kayne Hopping on Stage!
To Be Tha Most Beautiful...You Have To Experience Tha Most...I'm About To Get Loose Tonight, So Don't Flip Tha Page.
It's Not Tha Moments Where Everybody Caters 2 U, That Makes Tweety Bird So Sexy...It's Those Moments He Spent in Tha Cage.
Soaking In Every Experience, and Day Gone By Without Freedom...Saying, "I'm Gonna Be Tha Best" and One Day Fly Outta Here, and Become All Tha Rage.
We Look at Our Trials in Life, Like It's Tha End of Tha World...It's Not, but When Ur In Tha Malcolm In Tha Middle, U Feel like a Show Cancelled By Fox.
You Feel like U Have Tha Best Cast, Funniest Jokes, But Nobody is Watching You, and Rather Watch Re-runs Featuring Jennifer Aniston, Lisa Kudrow and Courtney Cox!
U Take Ur Blinders Off, and Look Around and Wonder How Are These Dudes Doing It? All They Care About is Bangin' Chicks 2 Add 2 tha Tally, and How Much Dinero Was Spent on Their Rocks.
Yet People Are Falling For This Mediocre Mentality? No Wonder That T.I. and Iggy Cut is Still Holding Down My Number One Spot.
Sure People Think That I Have This Out of This World Standard To Life, Style and an Unshaven Brazilian Bush.
But I Think...And This is Just Me, That Trials Come To Your Life, So That You Can RAISE Your Standards, After Disappointment, U Want Real American Pie, and Not Just Some Right Out Tha Oven Mush.
Why Would a Gurl Go Through Bad Dude After Bad Dude Just To Settle For Somebody Who Leaves Tha Seat Down and Doesn't Even Flush?
No...She...A Smart Gal...Will Take Somethang From Each Bad Experience, and Say..."I Like This...Not That...This Turns Me On Big Time...If U Pull On My Ear 2 Hard, That Puts Me In a Tad of A Rush."
So After U Reach Tha Level That I've Gone Through, U Can't Help But Want Tha Best...It'll Be Stupid Not To.
Which is Tough, Cuz U Have Tha Tendency To Compare People, Previous Jobs, When In Truth, Each Episode Should Be Looked at As Brand New.
Take Tha Lessons, And Forget Tha People...Real Talk...Cuz Some People or Situations Just Come 2 Ur Life To Get U To Tha Next Level...They're Part of tha Recipe and Not Tha Actual Stew.
Then U Look Back And See How Fast Time Flies...And Actually How Much Time Flew.
I Don't Like Talking About My Love Life, Then Again I Do Cuz My Episodes May Be Able To Bring To Light What I Go Through on Tha Daily.
We Got So Many Stories JUST From The Last Few Weeks That Is More People Go Through in a Lifetime...Probably Should Grab Some Irish Cream From Bailey's.
But Us Guys...We Play Things Off, but We Can Think About Stuff Especially When We Think We Messed Up or Missed Out On a Chance to Get a Taste of a Nice Piece of Jelly.
When U Have High Standards...Wrong Words...It's Rare To See Tha Total Package U Desire...Whether U Admit It Or Not, U Wish U Can Have Them Back...Like Tha Days When Jigga Did "Fiesta" With R. Kelly.
Very Recently, I Was Thinking, Man, I'm Not Gonna Be Around Who Dresses Like That Gurl, She Looked Exactly Tha Stylish Gal I Love.
Then With Another Gurl, I Was Thinking About Another Episode With a Gurl...Shaking My Head in Disgust Considering For Me To Find a Gurl Who Has A Curvy Butt Like Hers Will Have 2 Be Sent From Above.
You Can't Beat Urself Up, Thinking U'll Never Find Somebody Else, or This is Tha Last Guy/Gurl Who Has Characteristics That U Like, They Aren't as Rare as a White Dove.
This Kind of Thinking Can't Eat U Alive..."Freakin' A, I'll Never Get Another Interview"...Or That Person is Tha Only One I'm Capable With...All Sexy People Aren't Only Found In Tha Club.
So As I Was T'd Off Thinking About This Gurl's People En Latino Style....And This Gurl That Had Curves That Made Me Even Stop...I Began To Think...I Thought Tha Same Thing Months Ago.
With This Attractive Gurl Who Sat Next To Me on Tha Airplane Back To Miami...To That All 2 Perfect Situation I Had With Another Shorty, That I Saw after a Months Of Not Seeing Her Flow.
Plus Others...But What I'm Saying is That Somebody Else is Around Tha Corner...Another Interview is Coming...Ur Just Getting More Ready For Tha Big Show.
You Can Feel Like Ur In a Drought, or That It's Easy For Me To Say, but Trust Me...If U Remain True 2 Who You Are, Opportunities Will Plow Your Way Through Tha Spotted Yellow Snow.
I Have a Standard of Excellence For Myself, and I'm Learning Not To Beat Myself Up For Every...Little...Thing.
Perfection is What I Strive For, So It's Like...Every Really Sexy Gurl That Smiles at Me, I Think I Should Holla or a Sale Item Should Be Bought...Not A Need, but Just More of a Fling.
When U Haven't Seen Tha Ball Go Through Tha Hoop in A While, U Figure That Anythang That Comes Ur Way, Might Be Ur Chance...Maybe it is...Maybe It's Another Concubine Before U Become King.
I Know Gurls Feel Tha Same Way on Life's Issues too...U Can Be So Ecstatic That Somebody of Intrigue, Status, and Sexiness Notices You That U Throw All Ur Energy on Them...And U Don't Even Have Tha Ring!
Seemingly We are Learning...If You are Truly Sexy, Inside and Out...Ur Gonna Attract A Lot of Attention...From Guys and a Gal.
I'm Not Chasing Anythang Anymore...Cuz I Understand Our Value...We're tha Ultimate Really, So Why Should I Beg Somebody To Take a Chance on Us, When I'm A Whole Lot More Than a Nightly Text Pal.
One More Thang...And I Gotta Say This Cuz When Ur Striving For More in Life...When Ur Single on Life's Pops Charts, and U Figure Tha Only Way To Tha #1 Spot is To Move To Tha State of Cal.
It's There Whenever a Change is Coming For You...And...And...Funny I Don't Have Anythang To Rhyme With Cal!!
Whenever...At Least For Me...When U Make Tha Decision To Move On From Your So-Call Past, U Think About Going Back To Your Old Days.
I Sat at Tha Edge of My Bed Today, Thinking, "I Should Call This Gurl" , I Mean, Wanting a Gurl With a Mind of a CNN Newscaster, and Tha Body of a Corona Extra Ring Gurl Can Lead U In a Daze!
Just Being Honest...But When Your New Way or Outlook on Life Doesn't Seem To Reap Immediate Benefits, U Wonder if U Made Tha Right Decision on Pushing Away tha Donuts With tha Sugary Glaze.
U Think About Tha Possibilities That Weren't Really There, If u Think About It...But They Become Like That Image of "What You Could Be Doing"...If U Go Back 2 Your Ways.
Don't Give Up So Quickly...I'm Doing Things Differently Myself..."Learning a New Offense" So To Speak, and Phil Jackson and Tha Bulls and Lakers Didn't Master Tha Triangle System Overnight.
I've Thought...I Should Be More Aggressive...Take Whatever Comes My Way...Approach Every Gal I See Who Half Way Shows Interest, but Maintain Your Poise, and Keep Ur Dreams In Ur Sight.
Almost Feel Like Sinatra, Have To Do It My Way, In Tha Way That We're Gonna Do Everythang Possible To Make Sure There's No Way You Can Pass This Up...No Reason To Be Up Tight.
I Luv It When MJ Says in One of His Songs...'Some Things Take Time and Shame', but it's Those Moments Within That Push You To A Level When Everythang Turns Out Right.
This Diary is Really Full of My Emotions and My Soul...Just a Kid Who Wants To Have Fun and Have Tha Life We've Dreamed and Prayed For...Tha Journey That Has Entrapped Me Is Teaching Me Lessons Galore.
I Hate it Really and Truly...But I'm Learning To Accept It and Let It Mold Me...Just Because You Don't Buy Anythang Doesn't Make it a Wasted Trip To Tha Store.
For a Long Time Now, We've Been Tossed Into a Locked Door Lab...Trying Recipe after Recipe, and Dog Gone It..One Day That Entire Galaxy What We've Been Up To Walking That Laboratory Floor.
May Have To Go and Stand By Tha Window Get What We Want...
Opportunity May Be Over There...
Lord Knows I'm Tired of Waiting By Tha Door.
Galaxia.
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