Rope Burn.

13.

Huh.  That's tha number of days since I've written, and Boy has it been journey since.  I usually write in poetic form, but on this Chilly...(If U Call 63 Degrees in March) Day here on the South Beach Sands I'm just gonna let everythang hang out and see where this thang goes.  Folks may Luv Me....Or...Hate Me...I really don't give a 2 Hershey Fudge's right now anyway.  Cuz tha way our life has and is going...seems like I have to get used to doing things in a way without being concerned with tha opinion of others.  That's Tha way 2 Success Right....

U Know What...Lord, Give Me Strength....Let's Try to Jot in Our Typical Poetic Manner.  Here We Go...

"Never Been Loved", Yep!  Those were tha last words of our last post...and even as I wrote those 3 words, I had a brush with tears.
Why Be So Open About What I Takes To Become One of Tha Best?  Being Vulnerable to Negative Feedback and Possibly Jeers.
Guess This Is What Makes Me Crazy I Guess...Wanting To Help Others...Help Myself...To Reach a Lifestyle Where Everyday is a Scene From Cheers.
Where Tha Laughs are Everywhere, Where Tha Jukebox is Playing Our Favorite Tunes, and Where Tha Babes That Hover Around Me, are Tha One Gathering All Tha Men's Stares.

Seems Like I'm willing To Do Whatever It Takes, Under Tha Legal Law of Tha Land, To Get What We Desire, Just Because I've Gone Through.
Even Today We Were Thinking How We've Let No Stone Unturned Through This Process...All For Future Fame, Maybe a  TV Show, and For Someone 2 Share a Day of...Something Borrowed...Something Blue.
Recently I've Been in Tha In Between Stage of Our Life...U know like High School 2 College...College To Tha Real World...Hopefully MTV Won't Hit Me There With a Hefty Lawsuit!
It's Just When Ur Transitioning To tha Life U Want....While Thinking About Tha Life U Had...Having To Leave Some Behind Just Because Everybody Can't Take a Sip of Corona Out of Ur Valentino Size Boot.

That's What We've Been Dealing With...We're More prepared For Tha Life We want...Tha South Beach Life Where We Work Hard, but Throughout Tha Day Our Mind is Wondering...When's Tha Next Party?!
I'm Working Some Gigs That I've Outgrown in Many Regards, So For me 2 Stay Motivated Isn't Easy, I Can Tell U That...Not Hardly.
Cuz I'm Not Tha Same Person I Was in 2011...Or Heck Even Last Week...So Now I'm Arguing With God, "Can We Just Get On With Tha Show?  Why Do I Feel Like I'm Always Last or So Tardy?"
So Tough To Have To Go Through a Process, When U've Done Things More...Just To Have Gotten Less Than Others...I Mean, It's Amazing 2 Think I've Been on This Earth Longer Than Chris Farley.

Yet, When It Comes 2 Life...And In Some Ways Dating and "Luv", Which We'll Get 2 In a Bit...It's Like I've Had 2 Go Step By Step By Step...Like a 'Celebrity Anonymous' Meeting.
Boy, That's a Good Phrase, I Better Trademark That One!  Get It...Nobody Knows Who U Are...Yet Ur a Future Celebrity...And Steps To Recovery...Thinking Bout It Makes My Heart Do A  Rapid Heart Beating!
Why Do I Have Send in Another...Resume When I Work With a Company 9 Years?  Doesn't Tha Accolades, Honesty, and Work Speak For Itself...Is Life All Of a Sudden Won Only By Cheating?
Or How Come This Person is Walking Hand in Hand Down Collins Avenue With a Cutie...While I Have 2 CSI: Miami Study Texts For Chicas To Decide if Tha Words are 2-Dollar Bill Real Or Once Again Misleading?

I Have a Great Life...Really Do...But That Doesn't Make It An Easy One...People May See Tha Cash, Tha Beautiful Gurls, or Tha Wardrobe, and Think That This is a Sunday Morning Walk in Tha Park.
But I'm Learning That To Get What U Really Want, Especially if it's of Top Shelf Quality...Then There are Gonna Be Moments Where Ur Literally Gonna Have to Walk and Pray in Tha Dark.
Being Honest Today...Those Days When U Wish U Didn't Work So Hard To Get a Ferrari Lifestyle, and Perhaps U Should Be Like Everybody Else and Settle For A Life of a Buick Skylark.
There's Nothing Wrong With Whatever Car U Drive, or If U Take Tha Bus, or Even Walk...It's Just That There's Always Another Level...Never Stop Dreaming...And Don't Pick Up Tha 1st Dog That Barks.

They Say Tha Best Leaders of Tha Land Have a Few Qualities Within Themselves...They Serve...And They Make Their Teammates Better.
I've Gone Through This So Much, That I Wonder When Is It Gonna Stop In A Way...Seems Like Trying To Help Others, or Taking Tha Low Role For Tha Team Isn't Gonna Make Me a Miami-Ibiza Jet-Setter.
It's Almost Like U Open Tha Door for a Sexy Gurl...Pay For Her Dinner...Give Her a Kiss...Don't Sleep With Her Tha First Night, Cuz Real Gentleman Don't...And Plus, U know Having 2 Wait Makes Her Kitty Kat a Tad More Wetter!
Once U Gone Through This Process Time and Time Again Without Tha Results, U Begin to Think...Ok, These 1950s or B.C. Ways of Living Don't Work Anymore...I'm Gonna Live Using "F-IT" Letters.

Life Has a Way of Testing You...When U Try To Proclaim Methods or Share Keys To Success...U Best Believe Ur Gonna Get Tested Urself...To Tha Max.
U Tell Somebody To Keep Pushing After a Rejection...Then Expect 10 Rejections To Come Ur Way Via Email, Phone, Tinkerbell or Even Fax!
A Friend is Heartbroken after a Breakup, and U Say, "There's More Fish in Tha Sea"...Get Ready For U To Have To Cast Ur Net Out into Tha Love Sea, To Understand Tha True Luv Comes With a HEAVY Tax.
I'm Starting To Feel Like For U To Become Tha Best at Something, U Have To Feel That Thing's Ultimate Pain...Fun and Luv Seemingly is My Calling in Life and Tha Line is Busy Whenever I Call...1-888-RELAX.

After Tha Days and Nights of Wondering When Will This All End...How Come My Friends Don't Have To Go Through This...And How Come I Can't Pick Only Tha Channels I Want for Cable...U Begin 2 Grow.
That's Why I'm Embracing These Tough Moments, When Ur On Tha Sideline Ready To Check In...Because After Seasons of Studying Tha Game, U Now Understand How To Put on A Show.
U Know How Tha Curtain Draws...What Moments Makes Tha Audience "Oooh and Awww" During tha Event...Try Studying It Year after Year...Broadway Tour after Broadway Tour...And U Begin To See Tha Flow.
Sometimes It's Now When U Win, but Feel Like U "Lose" or Have Lost That U Learn Tha Most...Especially in Fun and Luv...It Might Be Good For Cupid To Patiently Hold His Bow.

I've Talked About Dating and Relationships...I Don't Know For How Long...It's Like I'm Tha Only One...Or Guy...Or Bachelor That Is Putting This Stuff Out Here in CyberSpace and Tha Galaxy To See.
I Don't Know Why Either...Excuse My French Here...But I Think, There Can't Be a Gurl or Any Pussy That Is Worth All That I've Gone Through Since Tha Age of...One Three.
Just A Simple Guy Who Wanted...With Tha "Ed" in Italics, To Have a Life Jokes are Shared...Nights On Tha Town Can Include a Dance and Toast...We Can Go Tha Disney Route, or Skinemax Route, It Doesn't Matter 2 Me!
Heck...I Can Act like Mickey, and I Can Show U Why Cinderella Lost More Than Her Slipper At a Midnight Stroke...And Turn Your YouTube Channel Into A Sexy Must See TV!

But I've Felt Like I've Gone Throu...This Past Week, A Thought Hit Us, Like Maybe One Goes Through Certain Love Episodes, So That They Can Be Prepared For Somebody as "Their" Ultimate One.
I'm an Egotistical Guy, So I Always Talk in Tha Sense of Why Do I Always Peep Out Tha Wrong Gurl...Insert Jon B. Song Right Here...Thinking Without My Ghetto Call of  "Cu-koo!" There's No Shine From Tha Sun!
Perhaps Though U Hate It, and That Is Not a Strong Word in This Instance...But Perhaps U Go Through These Things To Mold You So Somebody Can Say I Never Thought Jokes, Fun, Style and Looks Can Be Combined With a Great Set of Buns!
They Say Timing Is Everythang...But So Is Preparation Too...In Order To Be Ready For Miss Galaxy...U Have To Go Through a Miss Indiana...A Miss USA...a Miss America...And Possibly a Miss World...Several Times Over Without Saying..."I'm Done!"

What I Have 2 Learn is That This is Bigger Than Just A 2 Bedroom Home in Newport Beach...Or Having a Trophy on Ur Arm, So YOU can Look Good When U Enter Tha Room.
Even With Gurls...Just like Growing Up in a Rabit...Rabbitt...Raabit...How Do U Spell? Whatever...Ok a Bunny Patch...With Similar Looks of Beauty, U Begin To Look at Other Things To Make U Go "Zoom Zoom".
Since I Used Bunnies as an Example, I'm not Gonna Used That A$AP Rocky Song With Kendrick, Drake and 2 Chainz..."I Luv Bad....That's My...Problem...Yeah I Like To...."...Ok, Yeah..."Zoom Zoom!"
When Ur Around So Much...U Tend or Have 2 Look For Tha Little Thangs Tha Separates One from Tha Next...What Makes One Bunnies Flower So Bloom.

(This is Getting Freaky 2day...Cuz See Flower...Roses....A Gurl's "U Know"...I Hope Moms and Pops Never Read This!!)

Us Guys Can Be Dramatic Whether We Want to Admit it or Not When a Gurl Does Us Wrong...Especially If We Felt Like We've Been Used...or Hurt.
How Can They Switch Tha Game on Me?  I Run Thangs When It Come To This Dating Tip...Sometimes Tha Quietest Ones End Up Being Tha Biggest Flirts.
I Used To Be Like...Dannggg, That Chick Was so Hot...She was Cold...But Then It Hit Me That ALL Tha Gurls That I've Been or Associated With Were Really Raw...Like ODB Say...Aka Dirt McGirt.
Guys Always Remember..."A Gurl Is Never As Beautiful As U Remember Her"...Never Forget That, So Don't Beat Urself Up Like Tha Gurl Who Won't Return Ur Texts or Calls is Tha Only Judge in Luv's Court.

Forgot What I Was Gonna Say...Oh Yes...So Even With Me, When U Had a Lot of Beauties Come In and Out Ur Life, U Have To Learn 2 Let Go and Also, Not Get Caught Up in Tha Hype.
Like There are Soooo Many Attractive Gurls Down Here in Miami and Abroad, All Sizes, Shapes and Colors...U Can Go Crazy just on Sight.
But Gurls are People, and Not Just Some Kind of Meat at a Deli Market...So I Even Had To Ask Myself Yesterday...Do I Want This Gurl for Her Body?  Or Do We Have a True Connection That's Not 4G Heavy, but 4G LTE.
It's Tough To Balance, But That's Why I'm Really Into Getting To Know People, Cuz after So Many Gurls Have Let U Down, Many of Which Guys Will Drool Over if They Knew What These Gurls Did or Do....U Look at Not Just Tha First Class Section, But EVERY Seat on Tha Flight.

So Embrace Ur Feelings....Don't Run From Them.  If Ur Having a Messed Up Morning...Acknowledge It...But Also Take A Breath and Realize That a Rough First Half Doesn't Mean U Won't Win Tha Game.
We're Trying To Do This Daily in Our Life...Sometimes Tha One Who Comes in at Tha End, Is Tha Player Who Hits Tha Winning Shot...And They are at Tha Post Conference With tha Microphone and Card With Their Name.
Crazy Few Weeks...At Times I Have a Life of a Celebrity With So Many Strangers Coming Up To Me, Never Seen Anythang Like It...I was at Tha Triple A With Taking a Leak With My "Wanker" in my Right Hand...I'm Thinking This is Insane!
Or at Target, and Tha Checkout Gurl is Talking To Me...While She's Supposed 2 Be Helping Tha Gurl in Front of Her...Or A Guy Approaching Me as I'm Getting Into My Car Here in SoBe...It's A Cool Life, Far From Tame.

These Days Though Prepare U For What U Might Not Even See...U Think Ur Ready, but Tha Coach in Tha Sky Might Be Like..."They Need To Be Razor Sharp"....So Let Him Wait Just Another Week or Two.
I Share Our Stories With Luv and Life , Not To Get a Movie Deal, But Somebody Needs To Know How It Really Is When ur Striving To Do Things Tha Right Way...And 2 Know That It's Normal To Have Moments Where U Feel So Blue.
I Have Loving Parents, and Soaked Up Every Quote Poster, Book, and Family Member Wisdom I Could, but Nobody...NOBODY Could Tell Me It Will Be This Hard...Days U Feel Untouchable...Other Times When U Feel Broken and need Some Elmer's Glue.
When U Grow Up Like I Did...Dreaming of Celebrity...Having Fun and Changing Tha World...There's a Lot To That Beyond a Pencil and Drawing Pad...Sometimes Tha Only One Who Believes in Ur Dreams is...

You.

I Don't Write For Views or Ratings...I Used To in My Old Diary...Now if I Write Everyday or Once a Month...Someday We Can Look Back and See That Our Journey Just Didn't Happen By Luck.
Just Want To Share With One Person, Who Can Have a Blueprint of Sorts...That To Get To Tha Top, These are A Few of Tha Processes and Episodes That U Have 2 Experience...And U CAN'T DUCK.
Can't Hide From Them, Cuz They Are Right In Front of You if U Want To Have What U Want To Have...So Called Friends May be Lost, May Have 2 Skip a Party...But Ur Life is More Than Sex and Big Bucks.
We just a Simple Indiana Boy...Who Wants a Life Where I Can just Have Fun, Dude...That's It.  I Got Tha Cash...Tha Designer Names...But My Blood Ooozes F-U-N...That's On Tha Baby Bottle That I Daily Suck.

Love.  Hey, There's a Reason...Now Though, We've Moved On, I Don't Kiss and Tell, but if Lessons Need To Be Shared I Will Do It...Cuz Even if I Never Find Love...At Least I Gave it a Try.
May Have Taken 20 Seasons...And a Lot of Nights U Felt Were Wasted Cuz Nothing Was Made of It, but Even Mickey D's Will Tell You That It Takes Several Tries Before U Find Tha Recipe for the Perfect Fry.
Find Joy Through Tha Hard Journey, Which is "Beeping" Tough To Do...But U Become Relentless...Angry...Fed Up...Which Leads To Change, a "Never Again" Attitude...Learning there's No Shame in tha Re-Apply.
Everybody Thinks Tha Best Lovers Around are Built from Bedroom Conquests, Perfect Physiques, Slick Words like a Pimp...May Be True, but Sometimes Tha Sexiest People are Made From Tha Sounds of a...

Cry.

Cuz They've Reached Tha Depths That Some Men and Women Won't Dare To Endeavor...Tha Depths of Their Soul.
Tha Joys....Tha Pain...They Know That Extremes of Both, and More Importantly Have Survived Both of them....So Now "Fear" Doesn't Exist...Cuz they think, "If I Can Survive That, I Can Survive Any Test That is So Bold."
Yeah, Tha Highways are Sexy...But there is Something Unique and Extravagant knowing That While everybody is Parking on Ocean Drive, Ur Arriving at Tha Club Via a Dirty Walk on a Back Alley Road.
Others are Perfumed Up...Shirts Showing Chest Hair like a Mob Boss, but Come in Ur Dirtied Up Suit and Shoes...It May Still Be Prada, but U Know U've Earned This Night of Fun and Pleasure...And Ur Gonna Make This Moment a Tale To Be Told.

I Got a Lot of Things...But I Still Don't Have What I Want...That Could Be "Tha Most Famous and Influential Person in Tha Galaxy"...Or just a Beautiful Gurl Who Want 2 Be My "Fun Partner"...That's What I Want Tha Most.
See What Happens...This Is What Drives Me To Not Give Up When I Want To...Or Walk off a Job Cuz I Feel Like I'm Better Than This...Tha Medicine To Success Has To Be Completed...U Have to Soak Up Each And Every Dose.
I Laid In My Bed And Thought...I Can See Everythang So Clearly...From Tha Ride, Tha Babe, Tha Entertainment Level...Red Carpet...Paparazzi Taking Pictures of Me For Their Fashion Blog Post.
Writing From My Heart on this...Knowing That it's A Risk To Admit All This...But What If I'm Right? Perhaps This Diary Isn't Tha Past Appetizer ...Or Tha Present Dinner...But More Like... Tha Future Toast.

I Really Don't Have 2 Much To Say Anymore...Then Again, I Do, Cuz Now My Life Has Turned Into What It Feels After U've Gone Through, and Not Tha Hope.
There's Nothing U Can Do About Tha Past, but just improve on It Each Day...And Not Get Frustrated When Others Get a PBS Lifestyle While Urs Has Turned Into a Late Evening Telemundo Soap!
Keep Ur Eyes on Tha Prize, and Know That U Have to Be a Special Person To Be Going Through What U Go Through...No Need 2 Feel Embarrassed, Not Worthy or Like Some Washed Up Dope.
Mark My Words...Things Will Change...And When They Do, People Will Finally See Tha Power That Lies When One Reaches...

 Tha End...

Of One's Rope.


With Luv.
Galaxia!