Battle Lost. War Won!

Ok...Like Totally Right Now I Can Go On Into What's Happening in our Life as we Speak.
For Some Reason Though, That's Not What's In Tha Air 2night...Somethang Stronger...Not Week.
Ooops!  I spelled 'Week' Wrong, But Who Cares Right?!  Even Our Vehicle of Words Can Have A Flat Tire Where Tha Air Begins To Leak.
Let's Get Into Tonight...And Have Some Fun...Have No Idea What 2 Write About...It Seems So Mystique.

Tha Feeling of 'Not Being Good Enough'...Huh...Don't U Hate It When That Feeling Overtakes Ur Soul?
That Pain U Get in Ur Heart When U Think About Somethang or Somebody...And How It All Left U So Cold.
U Go Into a Situation Thinking Ur Tha Best Around...Only To Find Out That They Prefer Plain Cheerios Instead of Fruity Loops...Inside Their Bowl.
Thoughts Begin To Wonder if U Should Become a Brown Noser or Office Gossip Leader...Getting Tha Scoop on Everyone, Only To Use It Against Them...Typical of Any Social Mole.

Why Don't We Be Honest 2night...It Really And Truly Stinks...Like a Rat...Matter of Fact I Saw a Rodent This Morning On Michigan Ave.
How Does a Mouse Survive in South Beach?  Sure Like Everybody Else Here...Look For Big Cheese, Some Good 'Cat', And Staying Away From Tha Traps That Can Easily Be Had.
But That's Tha Thang...To Get Tha Best Cheese, U Have To Take a Risk...Sometimes U Hear 'Snap'...While Other Times Tha Mission is Actually as Clear As Tha Diagram on Ur IPad.
A Rodent Doesn't Give a Care About That 'Not Being Good Enough' Attitude...Cuz They Always Believe...They're Quick Enough...Smart Enough...Swagger on Being Tha Baddest of Tha Bad!

I Like That...A Lot...Has Anyone Ever Felt Like That Life Was Nothing More Than A Freakin' Maze!
Turning Here or There, Yet Going Nowhere...While Somebody Is Getting Joy of U Making Tha Wrong Turn Again...They Get Joy Out of Ur Empty Gaze.
They Think They Know tha Way Out, But This is All Brand New To You...So U Doing Tha Dance of Frustration Suddenly Becomes Tha New American Bandstand Type Craze.
After Turning Here and There...Then There and Nowhere...Only To Find Urself in Tha Same Place Where U Started...Boy, That Can Really Make U Skip To 2025, Just So U Can Leave This Empty Faze.

Recently, This Has Happened To me...To Tha Max...IN ALL CAPS...No Matter How U Put It...Dude, I Was Left Without a Word or Positive Speech.
I Felt like I've Been This President of Tha Nation of 'Fun and Luv' For Too Long it Seems...And When I Try 2 Get Help From Tha Senate and House...They Go Silent, Like all They Want is My Papers of Impeach.
We Would Come Home Thinking...'I'm on My 'A' Game' , like a Cup of Alphabet Soup...And Zzzzz's Keep Floating Around As My Goals Become More in My Reach.
Kicking Things in Anger like...How Come I Feel Like Zach Morris...But Tha Results Time and Time Again are Tha Kind Only Reserved For Guys Who Go By Tha Name of 'Screech!'

It's Like Walking Up To This Gurl U See, Just Knowing That Every Gurl Wants You...But U Want This One...So U Think It'll Be Easy as "Under Tha Bleachers...After Tha Homecoming Football Game."
Walk Up To Her, U Don't Even Slip in Some Mentos, Cuz This One is In Tha Bag...Tha Only Thing Ur Concerned With Is If U Should Even Ask This Gurl, 'What's Your Name?'
U Think About How Quickly U've Gotten Tha Digits Before...Dos Minutos is My Record, I Think...But I've Had Many Others Come in Close As Well...Now U See Why I Should Be Inducted Into Tha Luv Hall of Fame!
Swagger is On A Demi Moore Striptease Level, With Not a Tinkle of Fear in Any Part of Ur Soul or Mind...To You, She's Just Another Beautiful Dame.

Right as Ur About To Spit Some Lingo That Only Can Be Defined on Urban Dictionary Dot Com, She Speaks...And Suddenly U Realize That Her Model Looks Are Just Tha Tip of Tha Iceberg.
She Shoots You Down, and Makes U Feel Like Ur A Nobody 2 Her...U Don't Know If She's Playing Hard 2 Get or If Only Sleeps With Guys Who Have Lambos and TMZ Waiting on Tha Curb.
Next Thing U Know, She Walks Away With Her VS Angel Friends, To Continue Their Night Under Tha Miami Moon...And Ur Left Wondering if U Should Check into Tha Looney Pen and Put on Tha Knob...'Do Not Disturb'.
Cuz These Thoughts of Quarter Pieces From Ur Past Begin To Come To Tha Forefront, and U Get Angry in Wonder...Cussing and Ending By Saying, 'That (Boop!) Got Some Nerve?!'

That Feeling of 'Not Good Enough'...Who Cares if U've Got Tha Hottest Video Vixens on Speed Dial on Ur Celly...U Remember That One Gurl Who Pushed U Aside Like a Vegan Does a Plate of Spam.
Going Home Looking For Any Kind of Encouragement To Prove U Sexiness and Worth...Vaguely Cracking a Smile as U Lay in Bed Reading Tha Wisdom From Dr. Seuss' Green Eggs and Ham.
Wondering What Else Could U Have Done Differently...Was it Tha Cologne?  Was It Tha Five O'Clock Shadow Beard?  Did She Sense That U Were a Huge Fan of Tha Head Designer of L.A.M.B.?
Either Way U Simply Run Outta Answers, With Nothing To Explain This Fiasco...You Want To Get Wasted To Forget Ur Problems, But U Forgot That Gave Up on Tha Budweiser Six-Pack Cans.

Sums Up Where I Was Mentally To A Tee...Wondering Am I Just 'Not Good Enough' To Make Tha Next Step...I Thought I Did All I Can Do...But Who?  What?  Where?  and When?
Maybe I Shouldn't Have Followed My Dreams at All...Huh...Maybe I Am a Miami Six, When Up North I Was Considered an Indiana...Ten.
How Come All My Friends Either Have a Dream Job...Are Travelling Tha Globe...Or Have a Baby Doll...When I'm a Beach Kid Who's Galactic Journey into Fame Space Seemingly Has Yet To Begin.
I Just Felt Upset...Disappointed in What Was Being Written By Tha Great J.K. Rowling in Tha Sky...And For tha First Time I Thought Being This Fun Loving Dude Wasn't a Blessing But Like Tha 8th Deadly Sin.

Slowly and Surely in Tha Name of Deep Throat and Debbie Does Dallas...I Began To Realize That Just Because U Aren't Featured at Tha Kodak Theater...Doesn't Mean U Aren't Good At What U Do!!
Thoughts Of...I'm Not Gonna Water Down My Style For Anybody to Please Them Crept In...If Ur Gonna Take Me 2 Court For Liking Britney Spears, Rocking Marc Jacobs and Eating Flintstones Vitamins...Then Homie Ur Gonna Have 2 Just Sue!
See...Sometimes U Can Be On Ur 'Top Game' When A Moment Occurs...Perhaps tha Other Party Wasn't On Theirs When They Ignored or Dissed or Dumped You...I Should Write That Line Again Times Two!
I'm Feeling It Y'all...You Can Score 50 Points and Still Lose Tha Game...And That Loss Can Actually Spur U To Another Level...Like Tha Guy Who Wears an 'S' on His Chest, and a Funny Cape Outfit in Light Blue!

So One...That Realization of Literally Being at Ur Best and Still Not Getting Tha Results U Want...Then Another Was Big As Well.
That Involved Thinking of Every Possible Way This Can't Happen Again...Not a Gurantee, but That means Being Prepared So Good, That When an Angel Sees You, That Would Be Tha Second Hardest Time She's Fell.

(See, Tha First Time is When That Angel Fell From Heaven...See I'm Not Necessarily Talking Bout Gurls, but Life, but...Ahhh...Nobody Gets That joke!  So I Move On!!)

But U Want To Make Sure That There's No Doubt, Ur Mind is N*Sync, and Ur Temperature isn't at a MIA 98 Degrees...Tha Next Time U Hear Tha Opening Bell.
Wrote Down Some Thangs That I Could Improve On...And I Will and Have...What U Want is To Lessen Tha Possibility of Failure...At Least That's According To Bill Nye's Weird But Accurate Science Well.

Finally, I've Learned To Really and Truly Not Care As Much About Tha Results...Cuz if Ur Doing Tha Right Thangs...Sooner or Later Tha Results Will Come To Pass.
U Can Sweat Auditions, Interviews, Asking a Gurl To Go With U To Tha Strip Club, But...If Ur Prepared, Just Relax, and Now Worry...I Worried Too Much About Things Not in My Control...And I Finished Last.
Anything Not First is Last in My Book, That's Just Me...Yet, I Got Lessons That Are Helping Me Big Time, When U Know Ur Close To That Moment, U Should Enjoy It More Like a Long Awaited Solution Finally in Ur Smoking Flask.
I'm Learning To Stop Comparing Myself To Others...Cuz There is None Really...Don't Compare Somebody's Highlight Reel To Ur Uncut Movie...Just Because U Got an 'F' on Tha Initial Pop Quiz, Doesn't Mean U Still Can't Finish First in Class.

This is My Diary...So Might As Well Get This in Tha Open Too...I Was Taking All These...What's Tha Right Word...Silly Episodes With Different Gurls Way Too Hard...I Gotta Say.
When Ur Around So Many Beautiful Gurls Inside and Definitely Out, As I Am on Tha Daily Basis...Being Patient While Encountering Crazy Interactions Can Get To You...Why Should I Wait Another Day?
Walking Into a Place, and Every...I DO MEAN EVERY SINGLE FEMALE Is Checking You Out, Thoughts of 'I Can Bang Any Gurl in Here' Creep In, Especially When Tha Gurls are Ultra Hot, Yet a Voice Says..."This Isn't Ur Time 2 Play."
And U Walk Outta Tha Place Like...Hold On...This Sexy Tall French Gurl With a Long Legs and a Perfect Tan Was Eye-Fudging Me and Tossing Me Her Booty...Ain't No Guy Gonna Turn Her or That Down...But That Might Be Tha Test That In Tha Future Allows U To Have Ur Way.

I'm Serious When I Say I'm Taking Time Off From Dating and Gurls...Unless Somebody Knocks Me Out, Cuz I Used To Get Down About Being Me...Maybe I Should Tone My "It" Factor Down a Notch.
Almost Like an Attractive Gurl Going To Tha Beach, With Tha Body Gurls and Guys can Only Dream off, and She Shows Up Wearing a Hoodie and Sweatpants, and Keeping Her Nice Figure underneath Her Pouch.
Sometimes Tha People U Are Attempting To MAKE Like or Luv You, Aren't Those Who are Supposed To Be in Ur Inner Circle...Everybody Looks Good Under Tha Club Lights, After Tha Lights Come On...U Sometimes are Like, "Ouch!"
Just Because Somebody has The Height or Boob Size or Is A Los Angelenos  Mexicana Like U Wrote In Ur Letter To Santa Doesn't Mean They are Who U Should Be Making Out With On Ur Beat Up Ikea Couch.

People Change Sometimes When They Get in a Relationship...People Sometimes Let Themselves Go....Guys Get Boring and No Longer Want To Take Their Beauty Out on a Town...My Thang is Tha Consistent Soul of Fun.
My Energy of Life, and Positivity, and Always Trying To Become Tha Best, is Heredity From My Parents Tha Sun and Tha Moon (Smile!)...I Live a High Level of Life...So U Have 2 Be Willing To Continue To Climb Every Single Rung.
And When U Get Tired of Tha Monotony , or When U Feel Like Being on Top is Stale and U Want To Be on Tha Bottom, Being Flexible...To Change That Is...Keeps a Relationship from Turning into Cow Dung.
I'm A High Maintenance Guy...But I Don't Know Any Ultra-Luxury Sportscar That Isn't!!  U Get All That With My Sports Model...With Tha Biggest Benefit of Knowing That My Motor Has Purred, But Has Yet To Be Sung!


Hey...Don't Believe Tha Hype of Rejections or People Turning Their Back on You Without An Explanation...Happened 2 me So Many Times, Which is Good...Cuz U Now Know Where U Want To Go.
Those Thangs Allow U To Push Harder, Not Care as Much In Terms of Letting Tha Feather Drop Into Ur Hand Instead of Grabbing at It....Instead of Chasing Stuff...Ur Tha Chased...Of Beauty, Dreams and Dough.
This is Top Secret Stuff on How I View Life, and What I've Gone Through...I Speak From My Heart Cuz Somebody is Tired of Chewing On Tha Gum of Life, and Is Wondering When They Can Finally Take Tha Gum and.... Blow.
Freakin' Yeah!  It's Time To Dance...Always Believe Ur Tha Best...And Don't Sweat Those Who Don't See What You See...Cuz One Day...I Promise You...

They Are Gonna Want Tickets To Your Galaxy Famous Show!

Trust Me on This...They Will!

(Wink!)

But You're Sitting In Tha Best Seat in Tha House!

You're Tha Best...So Act Like It!!!
Galaxia!